Leading communion... Never done anything like this before.

I don't know if this belongs here but can't really find a forum for this.

So today I went to church, it was good. We did fellowship after church as usual and well today one of the church members came up to me and said "I am really excited to hear you speak" I was confused. I asked her "I'm sorry what do you mean?" Anyway long story short I have been added to the church roster. We have different responsibilities and well in two weeks time I am supposed to be leading communion. Noone asked me, I did not request this, I feel as if I have been thrown into the deep end. I spoke to our lead pastor and he said "you are ready for this but I was under the impression you had already agreed to this" I said ok I will do it but please can someone help guide me through it as I have only spoken once in front of the church and I couldn't even stand up let alone look anyone in the eye while I was talking.

How do I build up the courage to do this? I asked my parents if they could attend church that day as moral support and I know when I was a kid I used to want to do this. Now it's a reality and I feel completely helpless.

Other than pray how can I prepare myself for the public speaking side of this?? I have massive anxiety, I have grown up in this church. But still feel like a child everytime I walk through those doors.

What do you mean when you say: "Anyway long story short I have been added to the church roster. We have different responsibilities . . ."? Does everyone get added to the roster at some point? Did you know you would eventually be given some responsibility? If it's still two weeks away maybe someone was supposed to tell you but they just haven't done it yet.

I don't know what kind of church you attend, but the ones I've been to it's basically pretty simple. Someone reads a scripture passage that has something to do with the Lord's supper; then might offer a short prayer. Maybe yours is more involved, I don't know.

Thanks for the video

I'll watch it after school drop off. No I know it's not a job, it's just what if I get up and I crash and burn??

I have basically grown up in this church and I don't know it just feels so weird. I take my children to this church but I never thought I would be the one speaking up in front of anyone. As a kid I wanted to be a minister/pastor so badly. However the doors were always shut in my face. Now I am almost 30 and suddenly it's all open to me. However years of bullying and abuse have taken there toll on me and public speaking doesn't feel safe. I know I won't get heckled, but the feeling of getting up in front of everyone is like this huge pressure on my chest. My uncle is going to call me later today he's a minister himself and he said he will talk to me about it in depth so I have more of an understanding of it.

I know being guided through it will be a big help but I also feel like I'll let everyone down if I don't.

So long as the crackers get eaten and the juice gets drunk....you will have accomplished the task.

Heard from a lady who had difficulty with public speaking, she imagined standing at the edge of the garden speaking to cabbage heads, it helped.