hank you so much Gideon 300 for this
As you spend time with God, you will find that His word comes alive to you. It's important to know the Bible. It's even more important to know Him who is the Living Word, Jesus. Spend time with Him, even if it feels ridiculous. How many times have you had a conversation with someone that you can't see? If you have a phone, no doubt many times. We can't see Jesus but we can certainly speak to Him. And at times, He will speak to us, often through His word. We have conscience to correct us and intuition to lead us. Learn to walk by them and you will do well.
By the way, you will discover that you are not good in yourself. Even Paul said,
"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my flesh; for I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do. Instead, I keep on doing the evil I do not want to do. And if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it." (Romans 7:18-20)
This is a necessary experience. It is intended for us to despair of ourselves ever changing. But don't stay there. The answer is found in Romans 8. I suggest that you read the whole chapter. it is most encouraging.