@bsinseaford - I watched this old movie over the holidays that I've seen before, but this time taught me a real lesson. The movie was Jeremiah Johnson. There was this part where a family of homesteaders were attacked by indians and the husband and about 2 or 3 other children were murdered. The point of this segment was when Jeremiah helped the woman bury her family and try to take care of their broken home and the one remaining child - a young boy.
The woman, however, was "touched". What an intertsting word that was. Jeremiah told the woman that the indians would no longe harm her or her child "....on account of she was toukched". This meant that the woman had lost her mind. She would howl a death ridden horrorfying cry at night and cut herself during the day. After burying her family she followed Jeremiah as he was leaving and stopped him to hand her last child over to him for his care. She didn't speak. She was past that. She handed him the child and when he objected she showed him in a desperate and quick but unholy look that she had already passed any care.
I was touched by your posts of having a stressed day and of realizing how work had encompassed your life. Robbed you of whole pieces of living. Deprived you of a reasonble interaction with other people. Even disabled you to do or even remember the things you might enjoy. And I think of you as "touched". Not in the severe way of the homesteader woman, but as a sojourner of the meek as most all of us are here. A man crying out in the night mountain.
But just as this woman, consider it pure joy whenever facing these many trials knowing that your faith produces perseverence and perseverence produces character and through your character is hope (Romans 5:3-5). And so begin right here at CC to begin your rebuild if you want. People talk about practically everthihg here. Even reach out now and then.