Hi, my name is max. i am new(ish) to the christian religion and i hope i am welcome here.
a few things for backround information:
I turned to Christianity after a prayer of mine was answered following a suicide attempt. things turned around for me, and i promised i'd take gods hand and let him guide me through the hard times while i am still under the roof of a satanistic mother.
I'm not exactly sure what my mother practices, though . . . all i know is that she despised christians, ripped out the pages to a bible, and drew a male...uh..yknow on the forhead of my rosary of jesus christ. she also once made a blood star using self-inflicted wounds to curse her ex-husband. its scary here, in other words !
but, i want to turn my life around and live as a christian. its very hard for me to repent in certain ways (such as my vaping addiction, laziness/depression, and uh. bedroom stuff that im not gonna name.) and i'm looking for advice on taking the baby steps. a few questions i have for pastors, lifelong christians, or generally people who are more advised on the bible than i am, considering i cannot own one:
1. how can i involve christ i my daily life properly? is it just general acts of kindness, or something more?
2. if i ever do read the bible, how do i understand all of the complex words and their definitions? is there a copy of the bible with easier phrases that still has the same message?
3. will god still forgive me if i can't manage to repent from sin before death, knowing that i was trying my best the whole time?
a few things for backround information:
I turned to Christianity after a prayer of mine was answered following a suicide attempt. things turned around for me, and i promised i'd take gods hand and let him guide me through the hard times while i am still under the roof of a satanistic mother.
I'm not exactly sure what my mother practices, though . . . all i know is that she despised christians, ripped out the pages to a bible, and drew a male...uh..yknow on the forhead of my rosary of jesus christ. she also once made a blood star using self-inflicted wounds to curse her ex-husband. its scary here, in other words !
but, i want to turn my life around and live as a christian. its very hard for me to repent in certain ways (such as my vaping addiction, laziness/depression, and uh. bedroom stuff that im not gonna name.) and i'm looking for advice on taking the baby steps. a few questions i have for pastors, lifelong christians, or generally people who are more advised on the bible than i am, considering i cannot own one:
1. how can i involve christ i my daily life properly? is it just general acts of kindness, or something more?
2. if i ever do read the bible, how do i understand all of the complex words and their definitions? is there a copy of the bible with easier phrases that still has the same message?
3. will god still forgive me if i can't manage to repent from sin before death, knowing that i was trying my best the whole time?