Hello to whoever may read this. I'm a baby Christian of about 11 months so there is still a lot I am new to and unsure of. Wanting to have some of my recent experiences seen from another perspective rather than bouncing around in my head.
A few weeks ago I rebelled against God, I didn't want to continue fasting because it felt like it was back to back to back.
I was convicted at Church, and all was well again, until I disobeyed God again at Church.
Since then I did do another fast, finish and started to lose my identity in Christ; the joy, forgiveness, love, mercy ect it seems to have all fallen away and
I now feel nothing.
Now I know we are to walk by faith and not by sight but it seems as though I've regressed to who I was before (sort of).
Prayer is empty, I have to force emotions, and the only time I feel calm is when I'm doing Bible Study.
From the time of this post, it seems like its been around 3 or 4 days. Its like my emotions get sucked away in a vacuum shortly after experiencing them and im in this state of null.
I fear I may have disobeyed or rebelled again and this is what God has done as punishment - im basing it off of Hebrews 3&4.
I know I am saved by grace through faith and there is no more condemnation through Christ Jesus, but I am still fearing as there is still aspects unanswered and prayer is empty. I want to know if ive messed up or if this is just spiritual dryness or what but ive no clue.
I hope to find and answer, but Im grateful for other peoples opinions. Thanks
A few weeks ago I rebelled against God, I didn't want to continue fasting because it felt like it was back to back to back.
I was convicted at Church, and all was well again, until I disobeyed God again at Church.
Since then I did do another fast, finish and started to lose my identity in Christ; the joy, forgiveness, love, mercy ect it seems to have all fallen away and
I now feel nothing.
Now I know we are to walk by faith and not by sight but it seems as though I've regressed to who I was before (sort of).
Prayer is empty, I have to force emotions, and the only time I feel calm is when I'm doing Bible Study.
From the time of this post, it seems like its been around 3 or 4 days. Its like my emotions get sucked away in a vacuum shortly after experiencing them and im in this state of null.
I fear I may have disobeyed or rebelled again and this is what God has done as punishment - im basing it off of Hebrews 3&4.
I know I am saved by grace through faith and there is no more condemnation through Christ Jesus, but I am still fearing as there is still aspects unanswered and prayer is empty. I want to know if ive messed up or if this is just spiritual dryness or what but ive no clue.
I hope to find and answer, but Im grateful for other peoples opinions. Thanks
