Well, God is amazing, Walter
. He loved you so much that He allowed Jesus to come to Earth to die for you; and JESUS loved you enough to die for you before you were even born
. "He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world", as part as Ephesians says
. John 3:16-17 says (NKJV) "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved." He adores you, Walter, and wants you to meet Him as soon as you're ready
. Just tell Jesus that you know that you're a sinner, and that you accept Him as your Savior. Ask Him to forgive you, and to make you a new creation in Him
.