Disillusionment

I've been reading through my last journal and its been interesting to rediscover this path The Lord has had me on. I got to some very difficult months dealing with my divorce, the disowning of my father and his eventual death, the breaking of ties with my mother, etc; and I had to stop. It's not that God hasn't and isn't still redeeming and healing those things, but its very difficult to go back and remember that pain still. It has left me feeling a bit disillusioned. In all these circumstances I did everything to be what the other person needed in that relationship, but it was never enough. As I've mulled over this I realize that if anyone had any reason to be disillusioned it would be God. There are so many stories of how God gave us His all and we turned our backs to Him... Yet He still loved us. It's amazing. I realize that no matter what I did or didn't do, their choices were based on why they had inside and not on me.

Just remember that God always loves us, and he will never leave or forsake us. You have been through so much and God does understand. I pray that you will find peace and joy again, in spite of what has happened.

I understand that feeling of disillusionment after so many of our expectations are not met. Praying that God strenghtens you and encourages you! You seem like a wise woman from what I've read in the forums I know God has your back!

God took you through all that to make you strong. take heart and dont look back. pray for them and the lord will heal your heart and wipe away all tears. it will be well with your soul

I pray you will know you can live in the freedom, bought for you at the cross and not anchored in the past. Let go of the past, keep your eyes fixed on the future, on each new day God gives you. he paid the price for your freedom, it was more than enough, hold onto this truth. Celebrate the life you have and how much He wants you to live a life of victory, despite circumstances. I pray that if you write and as you speak, speak only and write only, of those things that encourage, show love, gentleness, patience, forgiveness and long suffering....then when you read your journals, they edify Him, strengthen you, remind you of His unfailing love and not destroy our faith. Through Him, you can be free and know peace. God Bless, <><

Hugs Jordache, it is in the understanding you have recieved, that one trully sees why God hates sin so much.
But still loves us so much as well.
You remain in my prayers in Jesus.

God bless
pickles