dont read.

If your reading this theres no point and i would stop now. Im nothing but a waste of breathe. A breathing mistake. I feel broken all the time. why am i posting this? to get attention, no heck i dont care if anyone reads this id actually prefer no one to read it but i need to vent. so here it goes. ive made tons of mistakes including one recently here on christian chat, i dont ask that you forgive me because a girl as messed up as me doesnt deserve it. i ask that you just know im sorry and im paying for it in my own way. You know ever since i was a little girl ive never felt loved and then finally once i did and i messed it all up. what kind of stupid imature horrible person does that. Me. i am nothing. dont tell me im not because you see ive been told im nothing my whole pathetic stupid life. The word Nothing now defines me. and i know some people arent gonna take my advice and your going to read this and think oh goodness i need to help her. no i dont want that. you see I am not worth your prayers. I am a nobody but the little girl or man living on your street...thier somebodys...pray for them...not me. Pray for that little girl being locked in the dark bathroom with her teddy bear because outside the door her brother is screaming that hes gonna kill her. pray for that boy with suicide always planted on his mind. Pray for the girl being raped or sold. Not me. I AM NOTHING. I used to be somebody but finally you just break and realize there is no hope. there is no god. there is no love. So pray for them not me.

Forever,
a waste of your time.

I will be praying for you, remember the greatest hope you can find is in Jesus Christ, not an organized church, religion, or anything else, I realize you seem very depressed and see yourself as worthless, but God doesnt create junk, and you cannot go by the way you feel.

You are very young, and I implore you to seek the mercy of God, pray for wisdom, and most of all repent of all your wicked ways, and seek His mercy, His mercy is huge, and he wants none to perish but all to come to repentance.

Jesus came to free mankind from the bondages of sin, not take thier place, He wants to be your one and only love and focus now, and this takes diligence and a desire to come out from the world, and all its hate, evil and fears, and seek first His kingdom and righteousness.

Yes its a narrow road that leads to life, but the simplicity that is in Christ is there for you, through His grace and mercy.

Satan wants you to feel defeated and worthless, and hopeless, I was there, but fell on my face before God, repented of my vile sins, through a long season of godly sorrow, I just wanted to die, but God had other plans, as I laid aside all my wickedness, and filthyness before Him, and received the implanted word in my heart.

He gave me the strength to walk the narrow path, and gave me all the strength I need to be worthy of my calling, repentance will not save you, but is necessary to purge your conscience of all dead works to serve the living God. Heb 14-7.

Stop believing the lies of Satan, you are a jewel to God who created you, and gave His son for you, to put you back into a right relationship with Him, through repentance and faith proven by deeds. 2 Cor 7-10-11.

God will not do it all, you must diligently seek Him, and you will be rewarded by your efforts, and you yield to His word, and grow in an obedient faith, our of love and fear!

The power of God over sin and rebellion and depression is there for you to take hold of, just cry out to Him, as you forsake your evil ways and thoughts, and He will fill you with His power and spirit, only if your repentance is real and geniuine!

You must have the mind of Christ, not the mind of the devil, and this involves coming out of the world, and putting His word and promises in your heart and mind, youcannot be double minded, and receive anything from God, He wants all of you, not a bit here and there, so understand God is waiting for you to come to Him, repent, and stay away from the false churches that teach you you are saved in your sins, and Jesus was your substitute.

Jesus can free you from your opression, but you have your part to do, in godly sorrow, leading to repentance, clearing away any wrong doing before God, as the city of Nineveh did, then the peace that transends all understanding will fill your heart and mind. Isa 55-7.

I know this may not be the message you wanted to hear, but I pray you will seek it out, get into the word of God, and be delivvered from your pain!

Jas 1:21 Therefore putting aside all filthiness and overflowing of evil, receive in meekness the implanted Word, which is able to save your souls.
Jas 1:22 But become doers of the Word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.

an atheist attack is always this"why God allows suffering" im super tired of explaining, theres no coercion here, it is based from our faith because faith is believing what you dont see...

2 CORINTHIANS 6:14
"DO NOT BE YOKED TOGETHER WITH UNBELIEVERS"

1 CORINTHIANS 2:9

"No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him"--[NIV]

Wnnabeloved, the thing is, all the reasons you claime as why you are not worth it, is exactly the reason Jesus suffered the cross for you!
Because He loves you, scripture says,( God so loved the world, us, that while we were still sinners He sent Jesus to take the cross for us.)
So no matter how worthless you try to convince yourself you are, it is simply brings more the reason why Jesus came and took the cross for you.
His love has already saved you, just ask Him and He will show you how much more than any reason you claime , He loves you more.
Praising Jesus for you and praying for you that all that is His love will cover you, fill you and heal you .

Hugs and God bless
pickles

I will be praying for you, and I agree with what pickles said. Gods will is for everyone, even you, to come to know God and to experience His love for you, no matter how bad you think you have done. Jesus still loves you and His heart is still set on you and He died so that you can be righteous even when you do wrong. Call out to Him to change you. God bless

Yes, I remember when I was seventeen too, I made so many mistakes, and even to this day I still make a lot of mistakes. We all do, but everybody wants to be loved. Even the handle you use is screaming love me, and there is someone who loves you dearly. If only you would seek him out. Then you would find the pierest of all love. The only thing he want back is for you to love and trust him. Nothing else.
Look around you, we are living in a world that is spinning out of control. The stage is being set even as we speak for the antichrist to step up and offer world peace, and the world will fall right into his trap. Jesus Christ is coming back before that happens and he's going to take the ones that trust him to a place where you will never want or be sad, but woe unto the ones that is left behind. I pray that you will find him. Today he can be your saver but after that he will be your judge. God bless

God doesn't make people who are nothing... perhaps you should listen to Him instead of the lies you have heard and keep repeating to yourself.

I found this song comforting.. whether you wanted us to or not, we read your post and I just want to say God loves you and we love and will pray for you as well.

May you learn to believe God's Truth about you and heal from the wounds this world has inflicted upon you. please tear down those lies and stronghold that war against the knowledge of God and listen to His message of love and hope.

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SNi3JRWiZJg[/video]

The Truth About Me Mandisa (lyrics) - YouTube

agreeing in payer with my brothers and sisters in Christ...

God did not die on a cross for trash. God loves you more than any of us can even comprehend. This is a very inspiring video that has blessed me so much. I'm praying Gods peace, a peace that far exceeds our understanding, over you. I pray the love of God almighty over you. I pray the joy of the Lord upon you. I pray Gods strength over you, "come to me all you who are heavy laden, and lean on me, for my yoke is light." I pray oh Lord, that you protect her mind from the lies of the enemy and fill her with your truth. Oh God, I pray that you destroy the hold the devil has over her and kill it at the root so it can not rise up again. I pray that you take away this hatred for herself and reveal to her just how important she is to you. I pray this in the mighty name of Jesus, who's name is above all names and is King of kings and Lord of lords, amen.

YouTube - Eric Ludy - The Gospel

God bless you sister in Christ.

wannabeloved,
How are you today?
You continue to be in my prayers in Jesus.
You are loved.

Hugs and God bless
pickles

I don't know what changes in two days. Only that I think it's fair to say, whatever you used to back up your feeling of worth with, you don't feel you can do so again. However, that's wrong. We have the power to find what is good, lovable and appreciated and embody that into our own personalities... and it doesn't matter if what we think of the world or thought is good or bad... or even if it was totally miserable, change starts at home. If my neighbour wanders the darkness but shouts to the world of the good he can give and where else it might be found, someone will see his light.

You are something.
You are everything to Jesus and to all of us.
You are part of our family.
You are my sister in christ and don't ever put yourself down like that.

I'll pray for you!

wow.. you know sound7 that might work for men but most girls don't like being slapped around, spanked, or told they are wasting people's time......

just wanted to give you a little insight into the female psyche... if you said those things to me, I'd be really offended and get my brothers to escort you far far away from me, because you version of love kind of freaks me out.

I agree that JESUS is love and HE can turn everything around and He is the light and that HE loves her and you even when the rest of the world may not seem to, but wow...

coming on a little strong.....

wannabeloved, keeping you in our prayers. May Jesus bless you and touch your life in a way that makes you truly understand His love and His mercy.

Buddy, even if you were talking to a male, it would still have been OTT. Read 1 Corinthians 13.

Just to help you out, blue profile names are males and pink are females

You only are what you think you are in your mind. You can feel worthless...or you can choose to see your worth simply because you chose. Have you ever stopped to think that the ones who told you are worthless are pretty much the ones that look in the mirror everyday and think that they are worthless so they tell you that you are? Never let anyone define you. You are the one in charge of you, not family, not strangers, you. When life kicks the crap out of me you know what I do? I get back up, and then I keep on walking. Its all you can do. This life isn't easy for anyone. Every single person on this planet is fighting a battle of their own right now in some way. Life is about hard knocks and from getting back up and learning from whatever it was that knocked us flat on our faces. I do not feel sorry for you. You make the choice to look at yourself like this and to believe lies that others have fed you because of their own insecurities. Buck up sister. Life doesn't get any easier then this. But it sure can be joyful and beautiful with God by your side. When he says seek me and you do....guess what....you really find him. I pray that God helps you to see your worth through his eyes because then you will really know what love truly is. He can and will pick up your life and show you things you never even imagined if you simply seek him with your whole heart and soul. And oh girl...he is very very beautiful and real (((grinz from ear to ear))) if only I could open the door to my soul and show you just how very real he is I totally would. When he reveals himself to you because of your faith and because you believe it is in a way that will forever change your life and mindset. He is the perfect peace. He is the perfect love. He is the perfect moment. He is just....perfectly beautiful and he is my friend and he is my healer and he is simply my everything. I pray pray pray that you find the relationship I have found with my King & God. I just love him so very much. With every fiber of my soul I love him because he designed me to. There is nothing in this world that gives you that pure delight and excitement that our King & God gives to you each and every time he does something in your life that is so blessed and beautiful. Its that moment when you think WOW that was my God that just did that and then all that you are fills up with complete wonder and awe that he touched your life the way that he just did. Pray Pray Pray Sista and don't stop til you drop I believe in you. I believe that you are going to be just fine. Remember...its......your........choice

I will pray for you. Don't give up. Stay in faith. We are here for you.