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Things have been weighing on my mind for a long time.. I have made a few unsuccessful attempts at connecting with the lord in my life. Me an my fiance started off on the wrong foot in the lords eyes. I have repented my sins many times to the lord and we are making a effort to follow the lord together. So myself him and our beautiful daughter can be close to the lord. In this troubling time we have gotten ourself into a situation that I feel is tearing us apart. We had moved in with my mother to help her out after a disheartining seperation with my stepfather. My mother decided to turn to alchol and other things to help her through things. We have been living here for about a year now and things are starting to affect our relationship ( not only me and my fiance but me and my mother). I have had problems trusting her around my daughter. She is denying her addiction an I have tried reaching out to her many times. I know the best thing for us to do is to get out of here because we cannot keep enabling this behavior. It is tearing me apart, she is my mother, my family, my blood, I just cant walk away but like my fiance has said "arn't you sick of hurting?' (which I am) and that me and him have a family together and we need to move forward as a family. We are just having a rough time right now because my fiance is not back to work full time. We put in applications for him and are hoping for a response so we can move forward together. I am in need for prayer. I am praying for the lord to guide me into the right direction and not to feel guilty about that decision and to help our family keep following the right path together. Thank you lord in Jeasus name AMEN!!