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kimbo

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Someone please talk to me for a bit. I have a voice disorder so I can not call anyone. can not speak on the phone. I have had enough and I am closer to wanting to actually commit suicide than ever. I know it is not the right thing to do and I will regret it. I just can not handle all the tihings coming my way anymore. I am all alone. No family. I can not tell my friends. I am single and so incredibly alone. I have developed a disorder with my voice where i literally can not talk. I am so isolated. I used to be so social. I need someone to just tell me everything is going to pass.
 
damombomb

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Sister you are not alone, it always gets darker before the dawn. Never give up! This is all temporary, Ill pray for you that the Lord Jesus Christ will
comfort you and give you joy and peace and pour his grace upon you! He sees your situation and hears your cry, trust him, poor your heart out to him!
You have plenty of friends here!
 
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pastel1

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keep the promises of God always before you. Don't get caught in the whispers dragging you down. God is faithful , he will deliver... Mighty and strong tower and anchor for your strength. God's love is sufficent to keep you. When I get dwon ask God i really nedd your love now more than ever... Lord if i am going to continue on I need you to show me your love more and more and more... God meet all our needs. We just have to have the faith to ask him. It doesn't start from a physical answer but one the at meets our inner self. If you can't handle yourself give yourself to God , give him control., Say Lord i give it to you. Your word says don't be anxious for anything, even to end our own life. Because you created our bodies and our hearts and temples our yours. I like to watch heaven and hell testimonies on youtube to keep me inspired and embraceing him. I pray God meets you and shows you his guiding hand... In Jesus name amen...
 
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Huge hugs kimbo, I hope you have found some one to talk to already here, as I know there are many who do care so much.
I know the struggle of having something physical being taken away, as I have faced this for many years now.
But as others have said, give this to Jesus, and let Him show you His glory in your life.
You will have difficult days, I know I did, but God took the weaknesses in my life and glorified Himself in them, and I would not change anything.
For His presance in Jesus has brought so much joy, streangth and a relationship that is beyond mesure, and filled with His perfect love .
And yes, it is worth it!
You are in my daily prayers for all that is the love and glory of God in your life, and a closeness to Jesus that will delight you!

Hugs and God bless
pickles
 
RickShafer

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What can we say......but that God verily DOES love you.
I know you don't feel it, I know it's hard to believe right now;....but He actually does.
My heart bleeds for you as I see your despair.
I love you.
God loves you.
Every christian in the entire world loves you even though they can't express it!

I just pray that Jesus gives you that close reassurance of the Great Comforter- (Holy Spirit); that will make God's love clear to you on the inside.

That's all I can do.............B.T.W. - (you are beautifully and wonderfully made) - (you know that right?).

You are just the type Jesus came to save to the utmost!
I pray He does it in you!!!:)
 
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Praying that his love that is deeper then we can understand will feel your heart. may you feel his comfort and strength today. In Yeshua's name I pray amen.
 
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OFM

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am praying 4 you special amen.
 
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psychomom

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I'm a little teary, first for you, my dear sister, and because of the love of God poured out in the words of these people!

Lonliness and isolation are very difficult battles, and I sorrow for you.
But the good news is that there are lots of us here who love Jesus, and love you!
And we can communicate via keyboard...no speaking needed. :)

It's not q-u-i-t-e the same as having someone in your living room with you, but it's wonderful in its own way.
I'm sure all of us have faced loss, and many of us in physical areas, that impacted our lives.
Not to say that what you're going through is a small thing, no not at all!! It's big, and it's new enough to still be like an open, raw wound. :(

Your Abba, your loving Father in heaven, is in the business of healing His children.
Should He choose not to heal your voice, He will heal your heart, and show you His plans for the new you.
I have prayed for that, and I totally trust Him for all you need.
You are His baby girl, and His beloved! How can He not give you everything you need? ♥
In Christ He gave us forgiveness and new identities. We will one day hear our names spoken by Him for the first time!
And on that day you will be able to speak back to Him. :)

I have to speak to the medical side of things (it's just who I am...)--have the docs given you options for communicating with others?
They should do, if they haven't. Please ask?
Meanwhile, welcome, welcome to the website!
I hope you will consider sticking around, beloved. You can send most of us private messages as you will, and please feel free to try out any of the other rooms as well, like the singles room or the Bible study?

You are not alone, my friend. You have your own dear Jesus with you always, and there are angels surrounding you at His bidding.
And you have us! :D
The trying days may come and go, but the Lord never leaves you, sweet sister.
Climb into your Abba's lap and pour out your heart to Him. Tell Him all the things you are thinking and feeling.
Read His Word to find Him there. He speaks words of love and comfort to you, and promises that will stand forever.

with so much love in Jesus,
ellie
 
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nw2u

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I have dealt with these feelings. It is difficult to believe anything when I feel worthless. I have found, through the good folks here, through reading God's word, and through prayer, these things will pass. God will provide for you. I do not know what He will do or how He will do it. Only He knows what you need. He will help you. You must keep, somehow, believing.

God does love us all. He has a plan. I don't see it. I can't know His mind, but He is there. What works for me may not work for you. God knows this and will adjust His plan and tailor it for you. What you think you need, may not be what God knows you need. I have had to allow Him to work in my life. That is very difficult. Patience is tough to find when I am feeling poorly.

I know that I am worth God's time and effort. I know you are as well. He will not fail you. Let Him love you. I will pray for you.
 
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shekaniah

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Welcome to CC!
The Love of Jesus is in this place!
If you give it a chance you will find it here!
I do not go into live chat.
I enjoy reading and posting in the forums.
If you stick around, you might find a second home here too!

My thoughts and prayers go out to you!
You can send me email any time!
I will try to get back to you as soo as I can.
Love in Jesus, Shekaniah
 
pickles

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Kimbo, how are you doing today?
Just wanted to make sure you are doing better, you continue in my prayers in Jesus.

Hugs and God bless
pickles
 
RickyZ

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Kimbo did you ever get anyone to actually talk to? When you get on next send me a message, that'll send me an email, and I'll get on with you if I can.
 
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arwen7

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kimbo said:
Someone please talk to me for a bit. I have a voice disorder so I can not call anyone. can not speak on the phone. I have had enough and I am closer to wanting to actually commit suicide than ever. I know it is not the right thing to do and I will regret it. I just can not handle all the tihings coming my way anymore. I am all alone. No family. I can not tell my friends. I am single and so incredibly alone. I have developed a disorder with my voice where i literally can not talk. I am so isolated. I used to be so social. I need someone to just tell me everything is going to pass.
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It will pass, Kimbo. It appears though that the first step, is to sort through some these issues, of feeling alone, stressed and unable to handle things. Community would be a good start. But I do believe that it is imperative to speak to a professional first. The stress in your life may be causing the suicidal thoughts, but there is something there hidden, that makes your thoughts go to suicide when there are healthier ways to cope. The stuff there that is hidden, needs to be dealt with.

Since it has been a day since your post, I am curious to know how you are doing. Either way, I would like to tell you this: You are here for a purpose. God decided that yes, you need to exist on this planet at this point in time for a reason. He decided that no, not 100 years ago, not 100 years from now. But at this point in time, you NEED to exist. God formed you, gave you certain unique features, whether physical or in your personality and soul that no one else has. You are so completely unique that God decided that you NEED to exist. Because when you really think about it, you could have very well not have existed. All the people throughout your life would have not been effected by your smiles, jokes, what you have to say, your opinions and thoughts on things that are important to you, the love you express, your friendship, etc


If you end it now, you end your purpose and the reason why God decided that you should exist. You will never know the lives you could have had a positive influence on. Existence is a gift and you are most worthy of it. You are proof of God's love.


Seek Him, He is waiting for you. He cries when you cry.
 
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mooman

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Beautifully wrote Arwen. Kimbo....please get help, tomorrow is worth living.
 
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psychomom

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Just wanted to let you know I'm still praying for you, kimbo! ♥
 
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shekaniah

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Prayers are still being sent!
 
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aloneandbroken

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youare in my prayers and know that you will always have someone to talk to here. God Bless You I love You My Sister
 
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itsanewlife

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Hi as not been on I only just saw your message and wanted to ask if you was doing ok today as my heart went out to you and to say God's love and strength is enough...you have to reach out and hold on and never let go.

I've been through those desperate feelings myself so if you need to email privately please you are welcome to message me.

God bless you x
 
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