Compared to some requests out there this is nothing major.
But this morning I've had a bit of a wake-up call.
Over the past few years I've noticed myself becoming more and more lazy, and self-centred, and self-indulgent. I'm always putting myself down but I really do need to change all of these things. Especially if I wanna be a better person for God.
I have many habits which I cant quite conquer, they're not awful ones but I hate myself everytime I fail to overcome them[one of them is avoiding reading the bible when I'm not "in the mood" or whatever.] Another is my diet, another is controlling myself when I'm in a state of panic.
Also, I was also confronted by a church member this morning at the church I clean at, that some people were disappointed cos I hadn't been doing my job properly, not only did I feel pathetic, but I was very very very humiliated, it makes me believe that I cant do ANYTHING right..and I know that's negative, and I reallllly wanna try and be positive.
I feel as though I need to get a grip of my life. Theres many areas which I wont go into ..but please, keep me in your prayers. I want to be 100 transformed into who I was meant to be.
cheers guys,
chlo x
But this morning I've had a bit of a wake-up call.
Over the past few years I've noticed myself becoming more and more lazy, and self-centred, and self-indulgent. I'm always putting myself down but I really do need to change all of these things. Especially if I wanna be a better person for God.
I have many habits which I cant quite conquer, they're not awful ones but I hate myself everytime I fail to overcome them[one of them is avoiding reading the bible when I'm not "in the mood" or whatever.] Another is my diet, another is controlling myself when I'm in a state of panic.
Also, I was also confronted by a church member this morning at the church I clean at, that some people were disappointed cos I hadn't been doing my job properly, not only did I feel pathetic, but I was very very very humiliated, it makes me believe that I cant do ANYTHING right..and I know that's negative, and I reallllly wanna try and be positive.
I feel as though I need to get a grip of my life. Theres many areas which I wont go into ..but please, keep me in your prayers. I want to be 100 transformed into who I was meant to be.
cheers guys,
chlo x