Passing_through,
Always focus on the present, and not the future. If you are following God where you are at the moment, then the future will be glorious. God has you alive for a reason right now, and that is to use you. You may want God to take you as soon as possible, but it's better that you remain, and to reach out to your loved ones and others.
Philippians 1:20-26
20I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death.
21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.
22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know!
23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far;
24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body.
25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith,
26so that through my being with you again your boasting in Christ Jesus will abound on account of me.
God bless.