I really need prayer. I lost touch with God after a really tramatic incident and since then my attitude has only gotten worse. I have been really self-hating. Last week I had a relization that I was a lot happier when I was in church and surrounded with other Christians. So I went to church with my biological mother who I have a lot of bad history with, and I couldn't just focus on the good points of the message. Instead I was picking apart the message and the church. Please pray that my heart will soften and that I see myself everyday as a beautiful creation of God.
How are you doing?
The broken heart, when one looks to superglue instead of Jesus can be a struggle to trust to Jesus again.
I know, I wanted Jesus so much, but was also so afraid of the pain again.
And everything seemed so false.
I know to step froward again in Jesus can be hard to to do, but it really isnt.
Its just ourself getting in the way because pain of heart seems like it will never recover.
I remember asking Jesus how can you repair a heart destroyed?
Jesus answered me saying, I dont repair it, I give you mine.
Perfect and strong, filled with His Love.
Its takes time learning His heart, but the step in faith of recieving it, was he step that saved me from death.
His heart will hurt at times, but it is a sorrow, made of His love, able to do all in Jesus.
Ask Jesus for His heart, He loves giving it to you.
You continue in my prayers in Jesus.
Hugs and God bless.
pickles