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I have been married for just 5 years. He was my best friend from the start. He was in the military. We got married before he deployed for the 2nd time. We never lived together before we got married. When I moved half way across the country to move and start our life together. I had never lived away from home and I thought this was going to be amazing because we will have to lean on each other from the start. I ended up moving there 10 months to the date of when we got married. Things were not good from the start. He yelled at me and picked fights all the time. I thought it was just him adjusting to being back in the states and home. well fast forward 4 years and it is worse then ever. He recently has started being physical with me. No hitting but pushing and shoving and he belittles me and I just cannot take it any longer. I know that the only reason I can divorce him is if he cheats. I asked him to go with me and get help with me for our marriage and he doesn't want to. I am tired and stressed and numb to it all. Can anyone give me advice about this? I have prayed it seems that is all I do anymore and it is not getting better and I can't even se a glimmer of hope at the end of the tunnel.