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Please um okay I'm not sure what to say. I just feel awful and really fidgety. I'm angry at my mom and so many other things. I feel like I'm going to blow up. Idk I don't know what to do with my time because everything seems like it will fail. I'm angry because I can't do what I want to do so I sit around figeting and acting like a crazy person because the pain is so horrible. Idk no one really cares and I don't fit in in the world. I hate this world because it's so perverted. I feel like I'm stuck in my own little world and don't get the "real world". I'm sick of being alone for hours inside just feeling depressed and fidgety. I can literally act like a crazy person and no one is around to care. I can be filthy and I don't care. I feel like I'm losing control of my mind. I'm so completely weird and stupid. It's just so painful. I don't know.

hi

i just prayed for you... i understand how you feel. please know that you not weird or stupid. my current church has been the best church to help me get over how your feeling now. do not listen to the negative self talk ... this is a time to pray for self discovery about what god really wants you to do ..best wishes... if you wanna talk message me back

No idk church doesn't help that much. The Sunday school teacher thinks I'm weird. She says I act weird like I'm scared and then I don't talk much. Like I'm some sort of a psycho creep. I just don't fit in. The other kids think I'm weird and it's really awkward being around them. I don't know

Aww, Sel, you have so much promise in life, God has greatly gifted you, milady.

It is not easy being 16 , I remember 16, there is so much new freedom and the Devil wants you to experience all the bad of that power that is now in you.

You can choose whom you want to serve, you have ability to choose and you have the power of God to make a good choice as much as the Enemy wants you to choose him.

One is a deceptive face smiling seductively, wanting you to fail, especially as you ask questions of God and serving Him, Satan is that lurid face, Sel, AND, the other face that shows you joy, holds His arms,open for you to come to Him, 'Come to Me, Sel, I hear your questions asked in Christian Chat, striking questions of wise inquisition, you're a natural inquirer and your questions help others who are helping you trying. Will you accept this help from them Me, I face you now, my Spirit cries out for you to Love you with My Love. Oh, My Love, sel, oh, My Love, Sel, it will be sooo good for you, completely usurping the tainted, sickly-sweet love that will draw you in by telling you doing bad thinking things and stuff to yourself IS GOOD. It will look good , too, but it will be very bad for you.'

' Sel, you can see Me, I know you can, I have so much for you to do in life, you're going through what young people go through. Oh, but you can come to Me, for your thirst, and, you will be slaked, satisfied, I will overflow your life with blessings of life like you knew not before.'
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Sel, choose Him to be over you, keeping you, do things that help you move forward understanding God, pray for this knowledge, milady, God gives us,what we ask for, and, when we cry out to Him He truly does things-in His timing- that show us signs of Him, it's OK to pray for signs for you now, Sel, the Lord leads, I pray right now, dear Lord....amen.

There is so much power in prayer, keep seeing that family of your church if it was goodness for you. You will know what is good for you from Him when you, stop,, drop, and, cry to Jesus. God bless you, Sel, now, go put a leash on your cat(s) and give them a walk around your yard. Like you love dem cats, your cat, is,how God Loves you , so much Love, Sel, from Him. God is your Father in Heaven.

Be at peace, God will heal you.Pray...Prayer is good medicine - Continuously pray all day.

Pray
Etrenal Father for the sake of your son, Jesus Christ our Lord, sorowfull passion have mercy on me. Forgive me sins, heal me, make my mind anew, protect me, deliver me, strengthen me in my time of weakness. Fill this vessel with the Holy Spirit that my will may be yours. Direct my paths so that everyone who sees me sees your prescece in my soul.

PRAYER TOTHE SPIRIT OF GOD
Breath in me, Spirit of God,
that I may think what is holy;
drive me, Spirit of God,
that I may do what is holy;
draw me Spirit of God,
that I may love what is holy;
strengthen me, Spirit of God,
that I may preserve what is holy;
guard me, Spirit of God,
that I may never lose what is holy.

PRAYER OF AFFIRMATION
I am loved by God;
I am made by God;
I am forgiven by God;
I am accepted by God unconditionally;
I am a child of God;
I am sustained by God;
I am important to God;
I am used by God;
I am enabled by God;
I am destined for God.Amen.

I have been in a similar situation- to tell you the truth.Your not alone.God will change your atmosphere.
Stay away from any thoughts or sights of perversion - movies, shows, people, etc... Stay Clean - take a shower in the morning and feel as though you are going to do something today.

I don't really live in the world around me as it present itself to me, I know that I live in Gods world gone astray. That makes me in control. I know Gods power is surrounding - look at nature, the sky, the animals etc..., get up, go outside, go for a walk connect with nature.

Go to a place where you can feel holy, and be alone to be free or talk t someone for help. Belive it or not a Church - no one says anything to you and you can stay there until you feel better.A church can be a sanctuary to get you out of the house.

Go to a Library, get into a topic.Look for jobs.

Stay in Christian Chat and chat with someone.

Watch Christian TV, or shows that are christian on the internet.

Now God is working don't get in a rush, he is sending some help to you but he needs you to feel peace so he can work on you.For having Joy in God is the strongest trait we can have for God to work in us.

We all love you

Selenah, hugs hun.
Green and nice is right about not letting the negative thought overcome you.
Some time one has to speak in prayer against these things, for Jesus will bring you through these thoughts.
Ive memorized psalm 23 and say it when ever thoughts of defeat or anger seek to gain a hold on me and found it is a huge comfort and help.
You are never alone or differant, we all struggle often and need Jesus to help us through the hard times.
You continue to be in my prayers in Jesus Christ is Lord come in the flesh.

God bless
pickles

Sweetheart! You don't fit in this world for one very great reason--this world is not your home!
If you don't "get the world" it's because your heart has changed, and this world doesn't make sense to the spiritual.
And there's very little here that is real...only the Holy Spirit in those Who are redeemed.
Now we sit for a moment and praise God that He has saved you from this world, and you are just a visitor here, and your real Home is heaven. ♥
And you are obeying the Lord:
Do not love the world nor the things in the world. 1 John 2:15

"If the world hates you, you know that it has hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, because of this the world hates you." John 15:18-19

Jesus prayed this concerning you, child:
I have given them your word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth. John 17:14-17

Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world. By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God; and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is from God; this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming, and now it is already in the world. You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world. They are from the world; therefore they speak as from the world, and the world listens to them. We are from God; he who knows God listens to us; he who is not from God does not listen to us. By this we know the spirit of truth and the spirit of error. 1 John 4:1-6

I see a great calling on your life, little one. I think maybe you are frustrated with your mom, as if she's holding you back? (is that even right?) If this is true, please be patient, dear one. The Lord has placed you under the authority of your parents for this time, and He will bless you for honoring them. (Ephesians 6:2-3)
You can use this time to read the Word, to memorize it (hiding it in your heart), and to pray. You can try to seek out others who think as you do (just like you do here!) so you may be taught the Truths of God, and strengthened in your heart and purposes. The Lord may have many other things He wishes for this short time remaining under your mom's authority.

My dear child, I agree with Meena--there may be weird things about each of us (except me, natch! ), but you are in NO WAY completely weird OR stupid! These are the lies of your enemy, and you must not believe them, or engage in negative self talk. The Lord made you, and you are perfect (complete) in Him. These are difficult years in any person's life, but for the young believer, without others of like mind, they can be terrifying. God said to you, "in this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world!" John 15:33

I pray you will find a body of believers where you can connect with others your age who can strengthen you. I pray for your relationship with your mom. I pray the Holy Spirit will whisper the Truth to you in the quiet times, and that you will hear, and believe. ♥

Selenah, I hope you know what a blessing you are to me, and to many others here at CC. I greatly praise the One Who made you, and placed you here.
love,
ellie

Sel, I pray all is well with you, catzgirl

God is so much about goodness, giving us 'hope,' His Son dying on the cross, that is utter awesome goodness. I know you, milady, get so wrapped up in thinking about whom God threw out of Heaven because he (Devil) thought he was able to be greater than God , and, why did God create evil, as Isaiah scripture says He did, not just good. God did this so mankind could live, could choose His Love or nit, for eternal life. It is a choice, everything we do is our own choice, God keeps watch on His sheep, and, like a good shepherd, He goes looking for the one lost that strayed. That is a great Love right there, sel, I pray you see His Spirit so wanting to embrace you now. Please accept God for who He is, despite your feelings of why does evil have to.exist, He is goodness, Sel, God is good, soo good, for God is Love. He sooo Loves all of us, Sel, He has given Himself to.us, to save us, help us, free us, show us the great things He has planned for us, individual plan by God for YOU, sel ,

'God , I pray, Sel, searches for you, finds your care for her, your Love, your great good power for her life, which you've gifted her with soo many gifts for the Kingdom of God work if she chooses to sooo embrace You. Amen.'

God bless you , sel, now go put a leash on those cutie catz of yers

Selenah,

Don't let negative talk get to you.
Focus on who you are in Christ...
Like other people have already said...this world is not your home.
We are just here temporary.
Don't be afraid to be yourself around other people.
If your sunday school teacher said those things to you...
She was not lead by the spirit of Christ, she said them in her own understanding.
We are not to lean on our own understanding...we are to be lead by the spirit.
I have read your posts...you seem like a very kind and loving young lady.
Now go look in the mirror and smile...because Jesus loves you!
God bless you and keep you, Shekaniah

Dear Lord,
Please allow Selenah to know that you created her in your image and that she is precious to you and to the rest of your family. Please allow Selenah to know that she is valued member of your family and that she has a lot to offer. Let her know that you do have a plan for her life, a plan to give her hope and a future. Please dear heavenly father create in Selenah a hunger and thirst after your righteousness and draw her closer to you each day and let her feel your presence and your love like the way I do. Let her know that she is beautiful and she is amazing in so many ways. Be with her heavently father please guide and comfort her and let her know that you love her from the bottom of your heart and that you care for her. Dear Lord keep Selenah safe and restore to her the joy of your salvation in Jesus name. Amen

I wish I knew what to say. Thank you everyone it really helps.

You remember the story of Peter walking on water to meet Jesus? Though it is not described in detail, it seems like he starts to sink once he takes his eyes off Jesus and look at the storm around him. Now I know too well how easy it is to focus on the bad stuff, and how easily it can block out God (in my case even things that really should not be "big enough" to do).

- Keep your eyes fixed on Jesus! Do NOT compare yourself to this world, because you are not of it. We are supposed to strive to be like Jesus, and the good thing is, He knows it is a task we cannot fully succeed at, but He knows when our minds and hearts are set at trying. The race is long, but the prize at the end is worth it

Selenah,

The above posts are great so I can't think of much to add except that it's perfectly normal to be miserable at your age .

You're waking up, you're unhappy with the way things are. I remember having the distinct thought..."I've been lied to". I wasn't even a Christian yet but God was waking me up. "The world" does lie to us...like Satan did to Adam and Eve. The things that we are made to think will make us happy, don't. After that realization comes a very sweet time of turning toward God .

Praying for you, dear heart...that you feel God's love surround you and that He gives you good thoughts and good ideas of how to spend your time.