I think I got fired and I am afraid

Debbie, Im so sorry that all is so overwhelming.
Please dont worry about how others have it harder, its not fair to you to compare. Every one has their own mountains to climb and yours is important because its yours.
Please, let yourself cry, tears are God Our Fathers way of clensing the sorrow from our hearts, he will wipe away every tear.
Also know ,you are never alone, you know there are many here that care and we all will keep you in our prayers.
I wish I could take some of the sorrow from your soul, but do know that Jesus is doing this. Sometimes it takes a while to feel it because the pain is still so big it makes it hard to see.
You are in my constant prayers, you are such a good person and a witness to great courage in Jesus.
Your heart is a delight to Our Lord Jesus.
smiles, hugs and God bless, pickles

My fear is so big it has taken on a life of its own. And my depression is so invasive that I can not even get out of bed. I am trying so hard not to get angry with God. Because I feel angry, and I feel defeated. And I feel resentful. I have prayed to God to take away these feelings. But as time goes by, what am I supposed to do. Nothing changes unless it gets worse. And the more things progress, the more fear and depression I have. I need some relief, any relief at all at this point would be a help. I pray and I pray, and maybe I am praying wrong. Is that possible. Is God not willing to hear my words because I have forgotten something I was supposed to do? Sometimes there are so many rules that I have to do, forgive, be humble, be faithful, be full of grace, evangelize, worship, praise, repent, do good works, repent for sins you dont even remember committing, forgive everyone who has ever harmed you, love everyone as you would love God, but love God above all. There is probably more but I cant remember it all. Do you have any idea how big that looks to someone who can not even get out of bed? And once again, I didnt get up to go to church today. Thats two weeks in a row. What is wrong with me. I like church. I love hearing the music and I really love the sermon and just being in the church itself.
I need help!!!!! I just dont know why I keep saying it and its like noone hears me.

Debbie

In Him there is no condemnation. Your ailment is no different than any long term illness. don't let the enemy make things worse by bringing condemnation on you. He hears you and help will come, but not always from where you expect it. Accept his favor toward you.

Debbie, stop worrying about what your to do, just let Jesus dothe work.
Also, its Ok to get angry at God Our Father, he understands and listens. In fact when we are angry is when we begin to see how real God is.
Hugs and God bless, pickles