I'm sorry

I'm so ashamed because I feel like if I were a different person, I'd be able to handle these things ...but I can't. I pray and pray and pray but my mind is full of torment while i await some answer or relief. I don't know what the future holds ...my husband has left and I don't know when or if he'll have me back. I've lost my job and my home over this and am having to live off of the charity of my parents at 43 years of age.

It took me a year to start over the last time he left. Starting with nothing, the Lord helped me out with a car and a job ..then furniture and an apartment. Here I am, 8 months later, having lost it all again, because I just couldn't do it anymore after he left. My husband feels we have fundamental differences because I see the gay lifestyle as sinful. He claims to be saved, but feels that he needs to explore and clear his head to know if he wants to come back to me or find a man. He feels he'd be happier with a man but has not completely rejected the possibility of his mind being changed ...thing is, he wants God to change it by divine intervention feeling that otherwise, he cannot control how he feels and must be happy. He expects God to change his mind, otherwise, he feels it must be His will since He allowed this to happen to him. He doesn't want to be "reprogrammed", as he puts it and rejects any Christian counselling.

We've been together since high school, and he's changed. He was so kind and loving ....now, rather hard and selfish. He says he still loves me and i keep hanging on because I love him and he's all I have and I'm the only one able to really petition God for him. Meanwhile, I don't know what to do with my life, while I wait and hope for him to return. I just want to die and can't function without him.

Please pray for both of us. I have no one to talk to and He seems to want to seek answers out in the world.

I have many things going on right now. Thank the sweet lord that he can for us is & will continue to Handel all our concerns. He is just...& knows what is best for us. Sometimes that is plural. If your requests. Include you, your husbands problems.or your parents grace in taking you in. They are covered & can be blessetooGod can & will take control of all. His promises also lead his people, lean on his words & prayers. & remember no matter how frustrating this time may be for you God is surrounding you always with a blanket full of answers & hope, mercy & growth. Shalom.

Don't. Understand how I got ahead of your request. Among the post. Maybe is because gods answers are not always within our time. Maybe it is because my smart phone is not so smart.. just stick with what is known. People will be praying & fighting for you, including Jesus himself.

Justme, sometimes all we can do is hold on to Jesus as we weather the storms around us.
You dont have to be perfect, just know that the perfect (Jesus) has you in his care.
All I know is that it was in the toughest times, when I was weakest and a mess, that I came to know just how great God's love for us all in Jesus is.
Just keep holding on to Jesus, He will bring you through this storm, even if it is a rough one.
Because in the eternal, that is what it is all about.

You and your husband remain in my prayers in Jesus.

Hugs and God bless
pickles

Be a light and example to him, its obvious by his fruit he isnt a true follower of Christ, he loves his flesh and has never crucified it!


Php 2:15 so that you may be blameless and harmless, the sons of God, without rebuke, in the midst of a crooked and perverse nation. Among these you shine as lights in the world,
Php 2:16 holding forth the Word of Life, so that I may rejoice with you in the day of Christ, that I have not run in vain nor labored in vain.

The word says those who are OF Christ are called to a higher calling than those who reject Him, or scoff at the truth! We are called to be blameless and harmless, without rebuke, sons of the living God, mixed in with a crooked and perverse world all around us.

To shine as light in this dark world, takes a lot of courage and strength, and a strong desire and commitment to walk blameless in this present world, set apart to be used by our master, Jesus Christ.

Not being a part of the large and popular church system or organization can leave one very isolated and separated from the life they use to love and enjoy, especially all the friends, family, and church people who made us feel welcomed and special, as we joined them in their worldly pastimes and fun and games.

But now, things have changed, for those few who have come to the truth, which can only come through real repentance and faith, leading to a real saving conversion! There are many scriptures that will show how this works, but for now, it’s either or!

Either you have crucified your flesh with all its passions and desires as Galatians 5-24 states, or you have not, and are still double minded, and will not come to the knowledge of the truth, until you do your first works, rev 2-5.

This conversion comes with many changes that must occur as God leads you into more truth and wisdom, and you must yield to His calling, and be prepared to come out from the world, and be separate, love not the word, which doesn't mean you leave this world, but you must be careful how you interact with the world and the things of it!

The word is clear, its calls the true convert to deny self, abstain from all appearances of evil, have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, expose all evil, love not the world, come out from among her, set your mind and heart on things above, keep yourself unspotted from this world, as its passing away and all the vain attractions with it, set no evil thing before your eyes, do not mix the holy with the profane, guard your heart, do not share in the sins of others, and many more admonishments laid out clearly in scripture.

Many will say we have liberty in Christ, and I agree, but this liberty isn't a license to join forces with the world, by putting into our minds and endorsing them as harmless attractions and past times.

God has given His children so much to enjoy, such as His beautiful creation, children, many healthy foods, and most of all His word, which is our joy, and nourishment for our souls to keep us strong against the wiles of the devil and temptation.

All that the world highly esteems and hold dear is passing away, and can only offer temptation to those who follow Christ on the narrow road, but a truly converted heart will manifest this true conversion in their life, by what they put into their minds, is it the word of God and His truth? Or the lies of the world, giving you and your friends and family a poor perception of what a real follower of Christ is!

We are to hold fourth the word of truth, not in vain, or in conceit, but in all humility, power, and passion, putting to death the deeds of the flesh the world highly esteems, by putting on the whole armor of God, being a light to the lost world and our families and friends, even though they may see us as strange and legalistic in standing against the pop culture, and false teaching they hold dear!

When we have opportunities to share the truth, which can be narrow at times, due to the love of the lie now prevalent throughout millions of churches and denominations worldwide, we can boldly stand for it, not just in word but in deed, so let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good deeds, and glorify your father in heaven!

Letting your light shine means you won’t be popular, you will be considered dull and boring to the lost church and world, it means you will stand alone in your convictions, especially when you preach against sin, and the love of the world, and most of all it means to come out from the world, in a radical way, so those who are searching, and open to truth will see a huge difference in what you do, think and say, plus wonder why you don't enjoy all their favorite sports teams, Hollywood movies, games, and worldly attractions that just pacify the flesh for a brief time, but do not satisfy the hunger and thirst within, searching for truth, that will set them free from the bondage's of sin and worldliness once and for all!

This freedom as mentioned comes with a high price! But Jesus made in clear when He said, to repent, go and sin no more, obey my commands, walk worthy of your calling, and seek first His kingdom and His righteousness! Where does your hunger lie? Is it for truth, righteousness, and heart purity? Or for the world and its many attractions, that will leave you high and dry, begging for more as the word and truth slowly gets snubbed out, because the fire is gone, taken captive by the world and the lusts of it!
Tommy

1Jn 5:2 By this we know that we love the children of God, whenever we love God and keep His commandments.
1Jn 5:3 For this is the love of God, that we keep His commandments, and His commandments are not burdensome.
1Jn 5:4 For everything that has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that overcomes the world, our faith.

I will be praying for you too, here is a wounderful passage


Isaiah 54:5
For your Maker is your husband--the LORD Almighty is his name--the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.
The LORD will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit--a wife who married young, only to be rejected," says your God.
"For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with deep compassion I will bring you back.
In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment, but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you," says the LORD your Redeemer. "To me this is like the days of Noah, when I swore that the waters of Noah would never again cover the earth. So now I have sworn not to be angry with you, never to rebuke you again.

Honey, if he wants to be with a man, he is the one that has the problem--not you--he is responsible for the choices he makes. I would not hang in limbo waiting for him to come back. I've been married for 25 years and honestly, if I were ever in that situation, he wouldn't have the option of coming back to me. May God bless you and give you peace in the name of Jesus.

am in Agreement for all the prayers meeting your need in this event amen