Just a regular prayer request

In the end, they still deal with the same problems we do. It's just they have to uphold an image their whole life. Which I kinda find as a form of enslavement.

Yes, very astute of you! I'd rather not be enslaved in such a manner.

Sounds exhausting. I don't want to be relevant.

Neither do I. Sometimes I like to step back from work or from life in general and kind of examine it and adjust from time to time. I don't like always doing the same things. Probably fly I've had so maybe different types of jobs. I've like once I master something, I can't stand doing it over and over and over again. I'm not built that way. Probably why the 52 songs I composed this past year is a bunch of various genres. The first 6 or 7 songs are all bass house and then I started changing genres after that and trying to make hits from every single one. They aren't the greatest but it was fun while it lasted.

I think that variety can be nice. Learning different things and doing different things.
Me, on the other hand, I'll stick with something for ages or a lifetime lol.

I would say most people are like that. Because I've been an artist my whole life, creating art from scratch, designing video games, composing music, creating logos, starting up businesses that I tend to fail at with some and have some success with other. I just love creating things from scratch and getting better and better every time I create. It's my way of influencing the world around me. I usually feel like I am way more capable than what employers hire me for and I feel like they are just wasting my time and the companies time by not putting me in a position that I would thrive in.

Or maybe I am how they see me but I am not limited in my belief about myself

I would say most people are like that. Because I've been an artist my whole life, creating art from scratch, designing video games, composing music, creating logos, starting up businesses that I tend to fail at with some and have some success with other. I just love creating things from scratch and getting better and better every time I create. It's my way of influencing the world around me. I usually feel like I am way more capable than what employers hire me for and I feel like they are just wasting my time and the companies time by not putting me in a position that I would thrive in.

You have amazing talent. I can't imagine being so capable!
I hope an environment that you'd thrive in presents itself, one that holds your capabilities with the high esteem they deserve!!

I do pray for a long term career though. I've always wanted one. I just can't stand when some companies make it nearly impossible to like the job anymore. Something that probably happens more so out here than over there.

I envision you being in control and making the decisions, where opportunities abound. Your own company.

I think that would take a lot of time being in community with other Christians, along with possibly making sure you have something to do or someone to talk to, while I am working on that, God willing.

I'm quite the recluse, so I'm sure I can function. Unless you are gone most of the time

I think we would have to see what God's will is because I'm not going to make to make something up that I'm not sure of.

Of course. Seeking His will is always best. I start my day with scriptures and prayer. I tell the Lord all the things I'm thankful for and I pray for those I care about or are concerned about, and I pray for guidance. I'm always earnestly asking the Lord for guidance. It's my fault when I go down the wrong path...

Of course. Seeking His will is always best. I start my day with scriptures and prayer. I tell the Lord all the things I'm thankful for and I pray for those I care about or are concerned about, and I pray for guidance. I'm always earnestly asking the Lord for guidance. It's my fault when I go down the wrong path...

I’m currently without any work, my car is broken down, my room is all of a sudden a mess, I don’t remember the last time i took a shower (maybe two days ago), I have no self motivation to get my life back on track. I have plenty of food, a roof over my head and clothes in my closet just like God promises. I have a mother who absolutely loves me, who would do anything for me. I just wonder what is next for me. After composing 52 songs this year and losing a ton of friends, most likely because of my own decisions. It’s kinda hard to not feel hopeless or in despair. I wish things would just work out for once but I’m incapable of making anything work. It use to be so much easier when I was younger. I can’t tell if I’m a prisoner of my own mind or this phone or my devices. Seems like I can’t put it down and enjoy nature. Like I just want to die like this.

I just ask for some prayers for God to get my life going again, if ever.

I feel this way often. I am in a similar parallel of life in most of what you have said. But, I am not as busy as you seem to be. Making that many songs and on the phone etc, takes a lot of time. I used to use "blender" until I realised the logo was a "666". I have nothing in life and not one skill. No gifts of note. And i'm getting to the age where it seems nearly all too late to continue.

I feel that all of this is addiction to "sense pleasures and worldly dreams". It is a clinging to what could be, and not to the submission to Christ and "being contented with ones lot". We want more. It is never enough. We have to learn to accept our lives are not supposed to be always fun and exciting. This is dopamine addiction and sense pleasure stimulation. This is why the phone is hard to put down and may be why you make songs, because of the "winning high" of dopamine when you accomplish something. I feel the same with all accomplishments. But this has to be directed to God in some way.

Overcoming of "strongholds" of dopamine addiction. Separation from the phone, the media, tech, forced abstinence. These however boring at first, grow a "non-boring state" of mind that does not need or stress or want to have a life "easier like I was younger" etc. We all feel this way at some point overall. It is life. We can all be happy, but not in a fallen sinful world. It has to be made new by God. Otherwise we are grasping lustfully, trying to be "of the world and in the world", when we are called to be the opposite.

But I pray the Father in Heaven, you are led to be prosperous and fulfilled in all ways, in health, wealth, spiritual things, godly things, righteous things, and wisdom, and understanding, and bold courage to do all good works set forward by God. I pray you are kept on the path with ease. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I’m currently without any work, my car is broken down, my room is all of a sudden a mess, I don’t remember the last time i took a shower (maybe two days ago), I have no self motivation to get my life back on track. I have plenty of food, a roof over my head and clothes in my closet just like God promises. I have a mother who absolutely loves me, who would do anything for me. I just wonder what is next for me. After composing 52 songs this year and losing a ton of friends, most likely because of my own decisions. It’s kinda hard to not feel hopeless or in despair. I wish things would just work out for once but I’m incapable of making anything work. It use to be so much easier when I was younger. I can’t tell if I’m a prisoner of my own mind or this phone or my devices. Seems like I can’t put it down and enjoy nature. Like I just want to die like this.

I just ask for some prayers for God to get my life going again, if ever.