Literally Going Crazy... Need URGENT Prayer!

I am a teenage sufferer of contamination OCD now that Mum passed away not even a month ago.
I have been irritated most day's and I am convinced I've run out of forgiveness options from Jesus.
I am driving everyone close to me up the wall with this fast-onset OCD. It's keeping me awake a night in tears
feeling like the contract has been signed - Hell is my eternity.
I'm just barely surviving i have hit every wall there is to hit. I don't have family, My mum and dad are gone now,
I'm here on this hell hole alone and God just seems to far away right now. I'm crying as I write this because you
don't understand how much I am going crazy from this. I keep being frightened because of hallucinations of mice.

The only thing I feel right now that will hopefully save my soul is a prayer from you. Just even the thought is the thing that counts. I am a walking shame ball right now. I'm pretty much the meaning of shame when i call myself a christian. Christians aren't hypocrites and just use the forgiveness and name of Jesus to spare the thought of going to hell. I'm over myself right now I'm over the way I have been acting. I just want my mum back.

Even Hitler could of been forgiven of his sins had he simply asked. The voice telling you that you can't be forgiven is lying to you. If you feel that God has turned his back on that feeling is false. God loves you very much. Don't let those tormenting thoughts get the best of you and cheat you out of salvation. Read the bible and believe what it says as it is true and trustworthy.

well cael, the first thing i would say as advice is that you find a christian counselor. i dont mean a pastor who counsels but a trained licensed christian counselor. as far as forgiveness. i'm 75 and have to ask for forgiveness every day at least a few times. it's not to avoid hell but to strengthen me to follow jesus in the world today. when i say that i dont mean spending 10 hours a day (when not in church) reading the bible. what i do mean is following jesus to serve the weak and poor. your ocd is one more thing that allows you to understand and touch people who live with the pain of mental health issues. i'm praying for you.

Also, repeat this over and over... "I can do anything In Christ, who gives me STRENGTH". That helps me a lot in times of need. I hope you do what Blue_Ladybug says to do. Everything she said, Is TRUE. YOU are loved deeply and passionately by our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. There is NO greater love than his. He loves us more than anyone on this earth could ever love. I will pray for you also and Hope you can hear the whispers of God's love in your life.

Dear Lord, please give this brother your peace that passes all understanding. Make him realize that he is forgiven for ALL his sins, past, present and future through the sacrificial blood of your son, Jesus.


Cael, I"m terribly sorry about your mom. God knew before you were born every sin you would committ. Feel comfort from that. They have ALL been forgiven if you have trusted Jesus as your Lord and Savior.

May God bless and keep you. In Jesus name Amen.

I'm so sorry! I'm praying for you.

As someone who has also been diagnosed with OCD, I can relate to some of the things you are going through (the losing of parents is not something I can relate to, I am so sorry for your loss). My OCD also drove the people around me crazy too, it was a very lonely time for me as I didn't seem to have anyone who really understood me or could relate to what the heck I was worrying about. I also struggle with the fear of being sent to Hell. I've had cases where the fear of not going into Heaven has really hurt me and really made my life difficult. I am praying for you, if you ever need someone to talk to just shoot me a PM, God bless. Don't be too hard on yourself, man. You're going through a lot more then a lot of people could ever know, I just wanted you to know that.

Cael, I am so sorry for your loss. You said you lost your Mom less that a month ago. Give yourself some time to process your grief. Anger is a very normal reaction to a loss like this. Try not to let yourself stop seeing other blessings in your life.

I am 58 years old and I have had more than my share of loss. Personal, physical and material loss. I have learned that the only thing I have and can depend on is Jesus.. Jesus has a plan. We can't see the big plan because in our nature we want to be happy 'OUR WAY". If you are angry with Jesus tell him that. He can handle it.

Scripture does not tell us to never be angry, It tells us to not sin in our anger. Be careful that you might loose your witness in anger.
EPH. 4: 26-27 Be angry and do not sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your anger, and don’t give the Devil an opportunity.

I can't tell you to not be angry. Anger is part of our fallen nature. It is ok to be mad. Remember that anger is just an emotion and we don't have to make it our identity.

Again I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray that you can find comfort in Jesus. Jesus has a plan for you that will make you very happy. Do your best to focus on Jesus and he will comfort you.

Kefa

Don't feel like that. Jesus loves you far beyond what you think of yourself. Satan is trying make you feel condemned, don't listen to him! Satan always plays dirty. You can be forgiven no matter how many times you mess up, The Lord won't hold it against you. There's only one sin that can't be forgiven and it sounds to me that you haven't done it.

Hi,
I am sorry to hear about your loss! If you need someone to stand by you in prayer, please feel free to let me know. I would be happy to stand by with you in agreement for your salvation and that you will have more faith for your salvation.

I hope that you receive more faith, confidence, peace and assurance that your salvation is safe and secure! I hope that you receive and remain in good physical, spiritual, mental and emotional health. God bless you!

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I may still be working out my perspectives on some things and I am not endorsing all of this teaching; I do think there are some good things in here that can help you out.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27CczzOmAqQ&html5=1