little update about the issue

Hey all

Now I'm back at home since my parents came into my studentroom and said they were going to give it up.
I can be lucky that the police didn't pick up when they called them.
However I recognised something yesterday.
I saw a documentary about a certain issue and even though they just showed some images, I got so angry and there was so much hate growing in me.
But when I was in my room... I realised that this hate was also in my parents' hearts. No matter how objective the details were about the situation, they always made it look bad because of hate caused by fear.
It went so far that I had to give up my freedom for a while after helping this guy.

They told me I have to harden more in this environment and that I else won't be able to survive...

Is this really a christian value or is this more a law of the jungle?

Sarah

Remember always that it is your heart Jesus asks for.
This is what you must always look to.
Jesus is the vine, you are a branch.
You must look always to Him if you are to bare fruit.
You cannot do anything unless you keep all in Jesus.
He works through you, by this does His work get done.
For now, rest and trust in Jesus, if you have felt defeated, it is because you acted on your own streangth, rather than His.
Let Jesus fill you and give you His sight.
You will know as what to do in all of this if you wait on His understanding.
You continue in my prayers in Jesus.
Hugs and God bless.
pickles

I'm not really feeling like I did something bad, neither do I feel like I did something good.
Maybe I indeed gave someone the opportunity to manipulate me. I just really don't know and I'm scared to judge falsely now.
Anyways, it's just over. I can't contact him anymore, he has to stand on his own feet (he's 10 years old than me so normally that shouldn't be a problem).

Maybe I get confused all the time because I didn't give my friends enough information.
I really gave him quite an amount of money and that's what my friends don't know about...
But if no one was to help him and he has to know the language to get a job, how would he ever manage to get a course on the language?
I just couldn't leave him alone and let him starve, I had to do something. So I did and it cost me my freedom.
It might not have been wise for my own safety. But at least it was the right thing to do.
My parents took care of my safety...

Hi daughter, I never meant to say you did anything wrong.
I do know you tend to overthink all alot, I know, I do it too.
I simply wanted to make sure you did not think you did.
You and all are still in my prayers.
Hugs and God bless.
pickles

thx pickles