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I am needing major prayers that I can get through the next 2 weeks. My MR son had a very important mental evaluation I could not take him to and because of my therapist lying to me and telling me she could take him and then didn't, he did not go. He has another appointment (different one) this coming Tuesday and I just pray I can take him. My panic disorder/agoraphobia made the last appt impossible, on top of thinking I could rely on my therapist and SSA saying the appt was not necessary (because of that, I did not think he had to go and found out almost too late he did have to go). I am on unemployment right now and I am told it is mandatory I go to an appointment at the unemployment office to continue benefits and I have to go unless I have circumstances beyond my control that prevent me from going. If I do not go to this appt, my benefits will stop and I may even have to pay it all back. My panic disorder has made it nearly impossible to go to any appointments or anything so really not sure how I am going to do this coming Tuesday for my son or the 18th so I can keep getting unemployment. I am just still so angry that my therapist said she would take him and did not, and was rude about it to boot! I also had a colposcopy a couple weeks ago and I have to go for followup to that doctor this Thursday. I just do not see how I am going to get through these next couple weeks. I just told myself when my therapist failed to help as she said she would that they will just have to base their decision (SSI) on the info they already have. I called the doctor that was to perform the evaluation and I told him my circumstances. He wanted me to put my 13yo on a bus by himself all the way to Tulsa alone. No way!!! So he may be denied because of everything. I wonder if the unemployment office would consider extreme panic disorder with agoraphobia as circumstances beyond my control? I am sure they won't so not sure what I am going to do now(( Everything is hitting at once. I am so stressed. My BP when I went to have my procedure was 175/110 so I am surprised I did not have a stroke. They put me on a med that makes me feel very sleepy and loopy. Not sure what I am going to do as I have no friends at all, much less friends I can count on. I am going to church this morning, but do not know if I can ask as I just started going there and feel uncomfortable asking for help.
Sorry this was so long. I just needed to vent and ask for major prayers!!!
Sorry this was so long. I just needed to vent and ask for major prayers!!!