I don't know what has made you feel this way but do not let circumstances or people make you feel that way! Jesus speaks these things over you right now and just recieve it.
Song of Solomon 2:1- "I am the Rose of Sharon, the lily of the valleys."
Song of Solomon 4: 9-10- "You have captivated my heart, my sister, my bride. you have captivated (captured) my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace. How beautiful is your love, my sister, my bride! How much better is your love then wine and the fragrance of your oils then any other spice."
No matter how we feel, or no matter how much we dislike..or even hate ourselves, it matters what Jesus says about us! Jesus calls you the Rose of Sharon...a lily of the valleys which represents purity! ANd you, even in your brokenness and weakness, have captured the God of the UNiverse's heart with one glance of your eyes! Your love for him, even in the hard times no matter how small or how big it pleases Him so much and ministers to Jesus so much. Your love for Jesus changes His heart. Jesus also calls you HIS BRIDE and nothing can separate you from Him.
also, being in love with Jesus is what will truly satisfy you in your life...nothing else will satisfy that deep longing in your heart. This God who is Holy, perfect in beauty WANTS YOU. So put your hope in Him and he will NEVER EVER let you down!
God Bless missy!
sarah