I'm asking for prayer, but also support and understanding from anyone who considers me a friend.
There is something really crippling my life and causing me to keep going in circles. I havn't fully worked it out yet... I know it has a lot to do with jealousy and that it's really huge and makes me feel sick to my stomach to even think about for a few seconds.
The thing about it though is that on top of that I have a huge fear of really addressing it properly, because for other reasons the emotional stress involved creates some really interesting results in my mood and personality and I'm afraid that I'll come out the other end of it with no friends, or at least damaged friendships.
Please go easy giving me advice on this if you don't know me very well, but I do appreciate your gracious prayers about this issue for me.
I'm resisting the urge to write about circumstancial things that I need favour for right now too, but I know God has it covered even though I feel stressed. But I know issues of the heart are of eternal signifficance and that's the part I feel utterly stuck in managing more than anything.
Thankyou so much!
There is something really crippling my life and causing me to keep going in circles. I havn't fully worked it out yet... I know it has a lot to do with jealousy and that it's really huge and makes me feel sick to my stomach to even think about for a few seconds.
The thing about it though is that on top of that I have a huge fear of really addressing it properly, because for other reasons the emotional stress involved creates some really interesting results in my mood and personality and I'm afraid that I'll come out the other end of it with no friends, or at least damaged friendships.
Please go easy giving me advice on this if you don't know me very well, but I do appreciate your gracious prayers about this issue for me.
I'm resisting the urge to write about circumstancial things that I need favour for right now too, but I know God has it covered even though I feel stressed. But I know issues of the heart are of eternal signifficance and that's the part I feel utterly stuck in managing more than anything.
Thankyou so much!
