Right......it's 6:54 in the morning, I've woken up with tears of happiness!!! I just wish that yesterday never ended even though I were stressed and worried for most of the day!
My alarm went off at 5:20 yesterday morning but having gone to sleep just after 11pm and having an awful nights sleep from waking up four or five times I pressed the five minute snooze button straight away! Then it got to a fiftneen minute add on, changing my alarm to wake me up at 5:35 and then I pressed the snooze button once more waking me up at 5:40. We were due to be setting off at 6:30 and so with fifty minutes to get ready 5:40 was the official getting up time for me! Long story short, we ended up setting off at 7 but we got into London at 9am, the traffic wasn't too bad but we had a few minutes where there were a bit of a traffic jam! Going through London wasn't too bad either, the route wasn't too complicated at all, it was pretty much a straight route as of the motorway straight to my dad's flat.
We sat in the car deciding what our best option would be and at about 9:25 my mum and I decided to take a hunt for the nearest toilet. We couldn't see any public toilets but we there were several shops at the top of the road and so we decided to buy a coffee to take out and ask to use their toilet. They allowed us to so we went to the nearest corner shop and then headed back down the road to EJ's car when my auntie lilian and herself decided to go to the toilet....this were at 9:40...they were still not back by 10:30...turns out they'd decided to eat in!
Anyway...during that time my mum spotted a woman, gingery blonde hair, very short hair, she was a butchish build and about 5ft4 and around the age of 56......as my mum thought! I thought she looked much older....about 65 - 70. My mum questioned whether this could be gail or not as none of us had seen her in the flesh, my auntie had only seen a picture of her! To get into the actual outside area of the flats were a task! You had to press the flat number and ask the person to let you in then there were a door where you had to do the same to get in! Seeing as we had a thought that gail had gone me and my auntie decided that now was the time to try and see my dad! A girl was outside with her dog in the garden area and so we asked her to let us in. Mission 1....completed.....now to see if the call would be answered! My auntie pressed the call button anxiously and somebody answered, my auntie went "Is this Gail" Gail went "Yeh" and my auntie went "Gail, its Lilian, please could I come in and talk to you" She sounded pretty annoyed did Gail but she let us in anyway then we got to the door and my auntie announced that I'd come too....I was shaking so much, I were so nervous!
We spent a good an hour and a half talking to Gail. I repeated and repeated that I didn't want anything from them, I just wanted to see my dad because he means so much to me! She said she was fine with me seeing him but I don't know at all. Anyway...my dad was at work and wouldn't be back until 6 / half 6 meaning at 12:30 we had nothing to do for the next six hours. She said that she didn't want to ring him at work and then him being all worried and getting himself poorly because he's been very poorly lately. Two weeks ago he collapsed having been prescribed too many medications by the doctor. Anyway we went to westfield, about twenty minutes away, a huge shopping centre! We spent ages there! Then after going there we headed back to my dad's and decided that with an hour and a half to go we needed to find somewhere to go. We went around the streets and found some sainsburys trollies....i tell you...who needs a satnav when you've got an immy in the car? I found sainsburys hahaha! I also directed us back from westfields haha!
I must have gone to the toilet fifteen times yesterday with nerves! I didn't think my dad would want to see us! we got back to the street that we'd been parked on and just at 6:25 everyone started praying and I just cried and said that I didn't think he'd see me. Anyway....we took our chances and at 6:30 we got out of EJ's car and walked up the road and press the number then call....Gail answered....we thought 'thats it....hes not gonna see us'....we got to the front door and my dad came straight to the door...I burst into tears and just hugged him straight away and went "Please don't leave me again daddy" and he said "I'm not going to let that happen". The three of us, my dad, my auntie and me just cried and hugged for ages. We went into the flat and sat down in the living room. Me and my dad just cried and cried. We left at half 8 which was way too short and didn't make up for 5 years at all. But I am so glad I was determined to go yesterday whether I went on my own or not because gail herself said "if you'd have come tomorrow we wouldn't have been in" so if I'd have gone today i might not have seen him! It just shows that God answers prayer....I never thought i'd see my dad ever again!!
Please pray for my dad though, that he'll start going to Church again. He said he'd been praying for this day to come so he clearly still has some faith but I've no idea how much. Please pray that he will get better and better! And that we'll see each other much more often and speak much more often! i want it to be weeks instead of months and years. and speak to each other every other week or so, just for the beginning weeks anyway then maybe once a week or something!
Thank you Jesus for making me the happiest little girl ever yesterday!!!
you know the other issue I told you about, I just prayed about it and I think I felt a peace about it, I think even though I'm so distraught about it, I think God might be trying to tell me that it's all gonna turn around. And I believe that He will sort this situation out, it may take a few years but as long as I know God's doing summat in A's life then I'm happy.
