The best advice I can give you brother is to turn your hurting eyes and heart to Jesus. Oh desolate heart and not comforted...wow, that came from my spirit...now to follow the thread..hmmm.
Isa 54:11 "O you afflicted one, Tossed with tempest, and not comforted, Behold, I will lay your stones with colorful gems, And lay your foundations with sapphires.
Isa 54:12 I will make your pinnacles of rubies, Your gates of crystal, And all your walls of precious stones.
Isa 54:13 All your children shall be taught by the LORD, And great shall be the peace of your children.
Isa 54:14 In righteousness you shall be established; You shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear; And from terror, for it shall not come near you.
Isa 54:15 Indeed they shall surely assemble, but not because of Me. Whoever assembles against you shall fall for your sake.
Isa 54:16 "Behold, I have created the blacksmith Who blows the coals in the fire, Who brings forth an instrument for his work; And I have created the spoiler to destroy.
Isa 54:17 No weapon formed against you shall prosper, And every tongue which rises against you in judgment You shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, And their righteousness is from Me," Says the LORD.