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I can't imagine ever getting procedures. That's not to say that I don't care about my appearance. I have a natural approach to skin care. The years are creeping up on me, so I guess I'm just trying to look okay for my age instead of older than I am. I do take collagen peptides and hyaluronic acid everyday, plus vitamins. I do face exercises and gua sha everyday. I use organic coconut oil on my face and a natural oil mixture around my eyes and snail mucin on my neck. That'll have to do, 'cause I have no plans of getting any type of procedures. I'd rather go into hiding. The critters would still come visit me lol.




This is smashing to hear! It sounds like your health will benefit so much. I think it is brave of you to go through the procedure of getting off meds. I haven't personally been on meds, but I've heard that it's not an easy process. You are choosing to move forward in a better direction and are actually doing it. That's inspiring. All the things you've mentioned surely will result in you feeling better in mind and body. Having a healhy overall well being (spiritual, mental, physical) is a blessing. It's not good for us to be trapped. It's not good for us to be stagnant. I hope so much that the road ahead continues to bring positive changes.

I currently don’t do anything with my face other than apply a prescription shampoo to my head, face and ears. For 8 years I had skin issues on my face, scalp and ears. Almost like a psoriasis. I told an urgent care facility about it like three months ago and after eight ears of being super self conscious about my face, it all went away and my skin issues back to normal. It’s crazy. I never really had bags underneath my eyes until recently but I think it is cause of me staying up every night cause I was drinking 64 oz of coffee every day. Now that I don’t drink coffee, I realize that I just have insomnia. So today my therapist recommended I talk to my nurse practitioner about it so I don’t have insomnia anymore and my bags will go away just by having better sleep.

If it wasn’t for me leaving my old psychiatrist because they didn’t take my insurance anymore, I wouldn’t have the amazing nurse practitioner that I do now. And the fact that I don’t have schizo anything and I’m just bipolar which I may not even be that either, gives me a lot of hope. Having a diagnosis of being someone who believed they were schizophrenic cause a doctor diagnosed them that way did a number on me but now that that isn’t the case, I feel like I defeated a ton of people that I told and judged me for it, including my dad and his wife and their children. They all blamed the drugs and told me that it was my fault for not moving in with them when I was 14. My dad is the biggest hypocrite because he went through the same thing when he was my age except he did worse drugs and a lot more than I ever did and instead of stopping at 26, he continued into his 30’s, never having a job until he was around the age that I am now. I started working when i was 18 and I’ve been creating things my entire life. So he could just not speak cause I obviously am not like him and matured at a much earlier age, while he was living off of my rich grandpa and stealing money from his for the first half of my life. The only thing I’ve ever stolen was a pack of gum when I was 3 and a few digimon cards at a target when i was 13. My dad bought jackets worth 8k with my grandpas money. So if he is going to judge anyone, he has to look in a mirror or the Bible.

I have since forgave him but these are things that have come up over the years that I don’t forget.

Now we get to see his new kids go through the same thing. I wonder what he thinks about that but probably pointing fingers again from my guess, instead of doing a deep dive into himself.

I realize I bought collagen peptide protein powder a few weeks ago but I have since tried it. I kinda want to use the 4 different protein powders I got that day while I’m working out. I tried the pumpkin spice protein powder but I only used have the amount of the serving and it was gross!

I'm so glad you have your current nurse practitioner. It sounds like you were under such a dark heavy cloud for a long time and are finally breaking free to clearer days.


I can't say I have any experience with drugs. So, I can't possibly understand what you've been through. I have certainly been under a dark heavy cloud more than once in my life. It's not a healthy place to be. I used to write about it, that seemed therapeutic. Of course, drawing close to the Lord was the biggest help. Getting out into the great outdoors was another thing and being active another thing. Everyone's comfort is different. For me, being out with creation made such a difference.


It's unusual how there are so many people in the world who don't see their own faults. I know people like this too. Unfortunately, it always seems to be someone close to us. Life is stressful enough. I guess, at least, we are not trapped in that mentality and making others miserable.


I never had children and I really haven't even been around children very much in my life. I'd like to think if I had had children I would have tried my best to bring them up with the guidance of the Lord.





I know the collagen peptides I take don't taste very good lol. I call it my nasty drink. I was taking another brand that didn't have any taste. I wasn't noticing that it was doing anything. So, I've come to the conclusion that if collagen tastes bad, it must be good

I'm so glad you have your current nurse practitioner. It sounds like you were under such a dark heavy cloud for a long time and are finally breaking free to clearer days.


I can't say I have any experience with drugs. So, I can't possibly understand what you've been through. I have certainly been under a dark heavy cloud more than once in my life. It's not a healthy place to be. I used to write about it, that seemed therapeutic. Of course, drawing close to the Lord was the biggest help. Getting out into the great outdoors was another thing and being active another thing. Everyone's comfort is different. For me, being out with creation made such a difference.


It's unusual how there are so many people in the world who don't see their own faults. I know people like this too. Unfortunately, it always seems to be someone close to us. Life is stressful enough. I guess, at least, we are not trapped in that mentality and making others miserable.


I never had children and I really haven't even been around children very much in my life. I'd like to think if I had had children I would have tried my best to bring them up with the guidance of the Lord.





I know the collagen peptides I take don't taste very good lol. I call it my nasty drink. I was taking another brand that didn't have any taste. I wasn't noticing that it was doing anything. So, I've come to the conclusion that if collagen tastes bad, it must be good

I’d like to go outside more and enjoy nature. Now that I have this new job, I can work anywhere so I was thinking of working in the outside tables area at downtown Long Beach’s Starbucks. I wish the beach had wifi. May have to get a hotspot service so I can go literally anywhere and work.

I was in a dark cloud from 16-26 even though it seemed like a great time at the time. Then at 26 I accepted Jesus as my lord and savior and there were some great times but the last two years when I left a job two years ago cause I found out my supervisor was being sexually immoral, I couldn’t be under her supervision anymore. But I think the darkness really happened a year ago, when I went to an old atheist friends house and we watched 10 movies, most of them rated R and I made the decision to watch pornography when I got home cause I watched the movie Wolf of Wallstreet. After that I was hooked and kept trying to stop until about over a month ago, I installed the Covenant Eyes app on all of my devices and they surviel all of your screens and warn your accountability partner if you look at any nude images. So because I’m being watched 24/7 by the app, and I repented my sin the same day, God honored it and I’ve been free from it ever since.

So now I get to add recovering porn addict to the list. Even though I have a lot of times of weakness, God seems to continue to strengthen me and make progress every day. Been free since before September 11th. It’s funny cause whenever I’d go to church during that period, everyone acted like they were a Pharisee toward me. Now I realize why.

I think the only reason i was accepted on this website was because I repented that sexual immorality sin, otherwise I would not be welcomed by the church.