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Depression, loneliness, pain hit me like never before now. I feel like my body is giving up on me. I don't seem to be entirely there anymore.I'm just falling apart and I can't tell someone. I'm in a point where God is telling that it's ok to be only dependant of Him but I can't walk by myself anymore. I have so many mixed feelings that I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't have friends, I choose to not have friends. I don't usually like to talk to people but there's just a hole in my heart now that I would need someone to talk to, someone I could laugh with, someone I could cry with. But there's no one. It took me that to understand that I can't take everything on my back, I can't do this on my own.

I'm lost and I have no more energy,
I could use some prayers

Will pray.

The thing with depression is that when it gets bad, you eventually don't want help because you either can't be bothered, or it goes so far that you are telling yourself no one cares and it is not worth it. I have seen people post here who even after three pages of replies keep climing no one cares. I am telling you this to make this statment clear: You need to find someone to talk to, preferably a professional.

We will pray, and encourage you as much as we can, but it is not a replacment for a real human being face to face.

Praying for you, Hannah

There's a part of us that thinks we will be just fine without other people in our lives causing us all sorts of problems. But the truth is that we were created for relationships. Yeah, they can get messy sometimes but there's A LOT of good things that come out of healthy relationships!

It's never too late to change our thinking and to 'remake' ourselves the way God wants us to be. Stay close to Him, ask for forgiveness for your sins, pray for other people, and forgive yourself too.

You've made a big discovery and now it's up to you to decide what to do with it

I will pray for you. God bless

I think Astrid might be right about getting professional help. Keep praying.

hi Hannah
I know how you feel. At 14 i was hit with depression. Took til my mid-30's before i really got any serious improvements. You sound a lot like i did. That i couldn't go to anyone for help. I did manage to keep some friends, but even then sometimes i would feel lonely and friendless. I know the sense of fatigue, restlessness, frustration, anxiety, and everything that goes along with it. I also know you need to make friends. You need to tell people. The more you isolate yourself the worse you make it for yourself, and the more you need to seek the right help.

Let me give you a few tips. They may sound like they wouldn't help, but these are the first steps you need to take. If you do seek professional help, a GOOD doctor will actually have you do this before trying to push meds on you. Meds should only be a last resort when you've tried everything else.
OK, 1st, make sure you're eating healthy. Fruits and veggies, cutting out caffeine and sugars. 2nd, exercise. Spend at least 20-30 mins a day 3 days a week doing a good physical workout of some kind. Jogging or walking, swimming, anything that gets the blood pumping and keeps it pumping.3rd, Sleep. Keep on a regular sleeping pattern. Try to get up and go to bed the same time as much as possible. If you need extra sleep, go to bed early, don't sleep in.
I know these may sound like cheesy cliche answers, but they're not. These are proven methods that can directly effect and help depression. How much they help may vary by person, as people get depressed for different reasons and to different degrees, but most people should get some kind of positive effect from them still.
Seek out professional help. But let them know, firmly, from the very start, that you want to try everything else before medicating. Research holistic meds if the doctor doesn't know them himself.

Hope this helped. Don't give up, you can beat this, even though it seems ominous.

Come to the Lord Jesus and he will fill you with a peace that will never leave you.

Hi I had battle with depression also at the age 15. I spent many nights crying and praying.You can go to youtube and listen to uplifting music of encouragement. Also check out a site call PRAISE 106.5 - Uplifting & Encouraging You can also pour your heart out to Jesus and he will help you. Write out your feelings to him from your heart. He said we are to cast our cares upon him. Pray pray and pray. It takes time but you will overcome it just continue to pray to God. I can only tell you what has help me to overcame it. If I feel like depression is ttryin to come in I always turn to what I know has help me when I was younger. Will be praying for you. If you need anyone to talk to message me. Be strong in the Lord Sis.

I just read this today and would like to share this scripture with you.I too don't keep much friends and the Lord had gave me this word before to.

Ecclesiastes 4 9-12
9 Two are better than one,
Because they have a good reward for their labor.
10 For if they fall, one will lift up his companion.
But woe to him who is alone when he falls,
For he has no one to help him up.
11 Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm;
But how can one be warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him.
And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

Thank you all for your prayers and advices.

I don't know why I always had a hard time accepting human nature. I see young people praying one second and clubbing the other. I can't seem to relate to anyone.I know that I'm not perfect but everytime that I make a mistake I feel so stupid so hurt and I'm so angry with myself. I try talking with people but it seems so pointless. I'm so angry against everyone but so sad in the same time. I can feel compassion and be degusted the other second just by sitting in the cafeteria. i feel like there's 3 me in one body, the rational, the God's believer and the me that is tormented by the ennemie's way of thinking.
Sometimes the burden in me is so heavy that I feel it on my shoulders, in my heart. Sometimes I just feel like my body is going to abandon me.
As soon as I start talking about my problems face to face with someone I automatically start smiliing and saying pointless things because I've been doing that all my life.

I don't know how to be more clear but I just feel like I'm going completely crazy. I'm just losing eveything. And somehow I'm still laughing and smiling. I'm always trying to help other people, like my life is not valuable enough for others to care.

I don't feel comfortable talking with my pastor because he's more like traditional, and talking with a pastor that I don't know is too much for now I probably won't even be able to ask for help. Oh on top of all it's hard for me to talk to people in general but to men it's even harder

Men are shy too. They don't act like it sometimes, but they are.

It's hard to believe but coming from a man it must be true.

I still can't seem to trust them I prefer to stay away but I must admit that all men are not the same. well i hope so...

Men are really not the problem for me right now. But when i'll be able to talk wih people without being anxious i'll remember your advice

OK, 1st, make sure you're eating healthy. Fruits and veggies, cutting out caffeine and sugars. 2nd, exercise. Spend at least 20-30 mins a day 3 days a week doing a good physical workout of some kind. Jogging or walking, swimming, anything that gets the blood pumping and keeps it pumping.3rd, Sleep. Keep on a regular sleeping pattern. Try to get up and go to bed the same time as much as possible. If you need extra sleep, go to bed early, don't sleep in.

This is good advice!!!
So I copied it... so you would read it again!
Depression is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain.
Eating right and good sleep will bring you back into to balance.
I pray that you will crave the foods you need to be healthy mind, body and spirit.
God bless and take care, Shekaniah