God is there for you now. He is always standing at the door knocking. You need to read His Word the Bible now/
Read Revelation 3:20.
If you have not read the Bible start reading the Book of John then Acts. I have a new website you can listen to some short podcasts at
www.kjcinh.com listen to the Christmas podcast. Leave me a comment and I will be glad to email and help you.
when you read the Bible, circle and underline the things that stand out to you. Then after that log those thoughts and how they apply to you. Be honest and write those down. That is how God talks to us directly. Believe me you will hear from Him if you do this. Try it please.