I pray that God will open your heart, so that you would be able understand what it fully means to be loved by Him, When your heart is open, so will be your eyes. Try thinking on the fact that God aloud Jesus to die on the cross, so that you would be able to receive salvation through the Blood of the Lam. And Jesus knew He had to die on that cross, because He thought of you. He wanted to make a way for you to meet Him in Heaven. That's Love. No Jesus, No salvation. He loves you so much that He thought it important to grant you salvation to meet Him face to face.
John 3:16 maybe used a lot by many, but the message it gives will always be powerful, for it is the Word of God.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, for whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting Life <3
He loves us much more than we think He does
May God Bless you.