I do have told some things in another thread on here about two foreign/muslim ladies at the Dutch Course where I go to making fun of me, and also offending me a lot. Yesterday I cried when I got back home and I told all to my husband that is now having 2 weeks vacation from work. It was very hard for me. Then today before I went to course I took some time reading in God's Word, and I prayed as well, then I went with a good attitude to course.
But somehow, these ladies had planned everything differently, and the strongest one of them was very rude with me in class. I tried keeping my head cold but this didn't help, so I went out of the classroom, crying a lot, whilst I was talking to a lady that is washing around there. She is a very friendly person and I had talked several other times with her too. Then the teacher found me, and some other ladies, and the lady making fun of me came out too. And she was smiling and laughing whilst she told me she had no idea she had hurt me, and that her heart was aching 'cause of her hurting me. This all looking very fake. I mean, how many persons are becoming a lot more joyful and needs to keep on laughing when a person is crying a lot? Still, she kept on acting as if I am the one misunderstanding her, since she said she was giving me a compliment, and also meant it as a little joke.
I find this still very difficult the way it happened, and in such disrespectful manner. It truly hurt me a lot how mean some can be towards you, and I never did nor said anything bad to them earlier either. Still, they seem to find delight in picking on me. Or that is how they have been these two last days. I do plan to building up myself more during this weekend, also building up my Dutch language and learn using more good and advanced language in the way I speak. I know I can make this, I am not as bad as they tried breaking me down with yesterday, talking to me as if I had a very bad Dutch, yet, when I speak with Dutch people, both people I know and not know, most of them tells me that I have a very good Dutch. So yeah, that I might be more silent one or two days 'cause of being tired for example, doesn't means that I suddenly have a bad Dutch 'cause of that very instance or so.
I want to ask you if you can pray God fills me up with more wisdom and gives me more strenght when I go back to course again this next week, and that I may say and do what is most right. Also to mantaine stable with my emotions, and have more peace of mind and protection from God. I'd really appreciate any given prayers, no matter if it would be a prayer said by just one time.
-May God Bless You-
