Praying for you to get off Zoloft. My husband got off of it with no issues. Are you going off Abilify too? I just got off a hypnotic similar to Ambien with the help of a pain management doc. It took 6 weeks of weaning, which considering I had been on it for maybe 20 years, was quite easy.
What are you doing to get support and help for the depression? Mental illness is not something to fool around with. I've heard if you are depressed for a year, you need a year of AD's. If you are depressed for 2 years, you will need 5 years of AD. Anything after 10 years, means you are a lifer. Really, there is nothing wrong with taking these meds if they help.
My husband fell into a deep depression when his father died when he was 14, and I did not figure it out till about 8 years ago (age 48), when we went for marriage counseling for our marriage that was falling apart. He was taking 10 mg of Celexa and needed 40 mg, and this year we had to add Wellbutrin to his cocktail. He won't do counseling but the drugs help. I am just glad it was such a simple fix and we saved our marriage.
Please reconsider your idea that "you don't want to be on meds all your life."
I will pray that God will lead you. I was on meds for bipolar for 15 years. God did heal me, and I have been totally fine for over 8 years and no meds. But I did not just go off. I changed my whole lifestyle, and added exercise, playing music, went to Seminary and had my daughter help me with emotions, started Christian meditation. I have structure to my life. I know God led me on this healing journey. But I also have Rheumatoid Arthritis, and so far God has not healed me of that, so I stay on very toxic meds that fail horribly, just to function.
I trust God is in control, and I will be praying that you find the balance in meds and not meds that God wants for you.