God returned my prayer and answered, telling me what I had done wrong to somehow deserve demonic attachment.
The “sin” I committed wasn’t really that bad: No one was victimized, and the so-called misdeed pales in comparison to actual sins like stealing money, adultery, killing people, etc. I don’t want to say what it was, but trust me, it wasn’t bad.
Consider this: If a driver of a car goes six miles over the speed limit, it is technically a crime—but does it make sense to punish him for it with a lengthy, decade-long prison sentence? That is too harsh and not a proportionate punishment relative to the insignificance of his crime. The most he should be penalized with is a speeding ticket, and most cops won’t write a ticket for six miles over the limit unless the municipality is desperate for money.
Sunday night is when the demons returned. Yet on that day I tried really hard to be good and not sin to the best of my ability. I had gone to church and heard a sermon about hope, but God made me feel hopeless by allowing (not causing) demons to attach onto me as a consequence of a miniscule imperfection, leaving me to suffer and causing my life to spiral out of control once again.
How on earth is it possible for God to find fault in me for something so insignificant when I spent >99.9% of the day being perfect, trying hard to do all the right things?
Being a Christian is truly a painful experience for me. My life will be ruined if God doesn’t quit his fault-finding behavior.
I am a Christian who has been born again. I know what the Bible says: Jesus died for imperfect people, relieving us of the taint of our sins and ensuring our salvation through faith in him. Why then would God be such a fault-finder towards me? Why would he hold such a terrible grudge against me for committing a miniscule sin? I was perfect for most of the day, being only imperfect just one time (and it wasn’t really bad), but none of this matters to God: Only the fact that I made one tiny mistake. How could God possibly treat me so poorly because of insignificant faults when my faith in Christ was supposed to cancel that out?
The demons have been engaging in their usual atrocious conduct against me since Sunday night. I’ve already described the terror they cause in lucid detail, so I don’t feel the need to reiterate. But really, it’s making my life spiral out of control again, as usual. And none of this would have happened had God not been such a fault-finder for one tiny little “sin”!
God seems to have said sorry when the demons came back Sunday night. But how sorry is he? Apologizing for something like this would imply remorse and have the tacit assumption that he wouldn’t do it again (specifically the fault-finding over one small imperfection that resulted in all this despite the fact that I tried so hard to do what God requires). However, it is difficult to see God changing: He won’t stop finding fault in me for little things that don’t matter.
I can’t live the rest of my life walking on eggshells. My experiences show that even when I try my best to be perfect, it’s rare that God will get rid of the demons because I will have done something that he doesn’t like. Often that “mistake” isn’t so bad, and no one was victimized. What happened to Jesus’ power of forgiveness for imperfect people? Why on earth would God allow me to be terrorized by demons when I fail to live up to his impossibly high standards?
The “sin” I committed wasn’t really that bad: No one was victimized, and the so-called misdeed pales in comparison to actual sins like stealing money, adultery, killing people, etc. I don’t want to say what it was, but trust me, it wasn’t bad.
Consider this: If a driver of a car goes six miles over the speed limit, it is technically a crime—but does it make sense to punish him for it with a lengthy, decade-long prison sentence? That is too harsh and not a proportionate punishment relative to the insignificance of his crime. The most he should be penalized with is a speeding ticket, and most cops won’t write a ticket for six miles over the limit unless the municipality is desperate for money.
Sunday night is when the demons returned. Yet on that day I tried really hard to be good and not sin to the best of my ability. I had gone to church and heard a sermon about hope, but God made me feel hopeless by allowing (not causing) demons to attach onto me as a consequence of a miniscule imperfection, leaving me to suffer and causing my life to spiral out of control once again.
How on earth is it possible for God to find fault in me for something so insignificant when I spent >99.9% of the day being perfect, trying hard to do all the right things?
Being a Christian is truly a painful experience for me. My life will be ruined if God doesn’t quit his fault-finding behavior.
I am a Christian who has been born again. I know what the Bible says: Jesus died for imperfect people, relieving us of the taint of our sins and ensuring our salvation through faith in him. Why then would God be such a fault-finder towards me? Why would he hold such a terrible grudge against me for committing a miniscule sin? I was perfect for most of the day, being only imperfect just one time (and it wasn’t really bad), but none of this matters to God: Only the fact that I made one tiny mistake. How could God possibly treat me so poorly because of insignificant faults when my faith in Christ was supposed to cancel that out?
The demons have been engaging in their usual atrocious conduct against me since Sunday night. I’ve already described the terror they cause in lucid detail, so I don’t feel the need to reiterate. But really, it’s making my life spiral out of control again, as usual. And none of this would have happened had God not been such a fault-finder for one tiny little “sin”!
God seems to have said sorry when the demons came back Sunday night. But how sorry is he? Apologizing for something like this would imply remorse and have the tacit assumption that he wouldn’t do it again (specifically the fault-finding over one small imperfection that resulted in all this despite the fact that I tried so hard to do what God requires). However, it is difficult to see God changing: He won’t stop finding fault in me for little things that don’t matter.
I can’t live the rest of my life walking on eggshells. My experiences show that even when I try my best to be perfect, it’s rare that God will get rid of the demons because I will have done something that he doesn’t like. Often that “mistake” isn’t so bad, and no one was victimized. What happened to Jesus’ power of forgiveness for imperfect people? Why on earth would God allow me to be terrorized by demons when I fail to live up to his impossibly high standards?
1 John 3:4 ESV
Everyone who makes a practice of sinning also practices lawlessness; sin is lawlessness.
James 4:17 ESV
So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.
Galatians 5:19-21 ESV
Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.
1 Corinthians 6:9-10 ESV
Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.
2 Corinthians 5:17 ESV
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
1 Corinthians 10:13 ESV
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.
1 John 5:17 ESV
All wrongdoing is sin, but there is sin that does not lead to death.
Hebrews 10:26-31
English Standard Version
26 For if we go on sinning deliberately after receiving the knowledge of the truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, 27 but a fearful expectation of judgment, and a fury of fire that will consume the adversaries. 28 Anyone who has set aside the law of Moses dies without mercy on the evidence of two or three witnesses. 29 How much worse punishment, do you think, will be deserved by the one who has trampled underfoot the Son of God, and has profaned the blood of the covenant by which he was sanctified, and has outraged the Spirit of grace? 30 For we know him who said, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay.” And again, “The Lord will judge his people.” 31 It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God.