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A friend of mine really needs to find freedom. I have known her for a while, but the depth of her brokeness is just now becoming clear to me. In the several years I've known Brenna, I've never seen her without pounds of makeup and dressed to the 9's. Her outer appearance is a facade which is based off the wall she has put up so that people do not see her brokeness. She really is a kind and compassionate girl. Unfortunately, she functions emotionally at the level of a teenager.
Over the years, Brenna has told me next to nothing about her past. There is shame there that I don't think she even realizes. What I do know is that she didn't grow up in her family. She was not in foster care, but by her own doing she went from family to family trying to find a place to belong.
Brenna puts on this err of happiness which really makes a deep sadness and grief over not belonging and not knowing where she stands in life. In the few years that I've known Brenna gone back and forth between last names. At first she just wouldn't tell anyone because she really didn't know what to say. Then she began grasping at the last names of significant people in her life. I still don't know what her legal last name is, but I've seen her go through about 8 in the past years. She really does not know who she is.
Last night I was talking and praying with her as she was telling me about her current situation. She said that she can't (won't) get a job because that would mean she doesn't qualify for whatever aid she is getting. I completely understand where she's coming from, but I also know that it comes from a poverty mentality. At this point, she is 25 years old and makes about $100 a week She has not pursued education or any other work.
The thing that concerned me the most from our conversation last night has to do with her naivete. She is extremely naive and because of her self-hatred she doesn't take things seriously when she really should. She has only been a Christian (the long-ranger type) for about two years. Prior to finding Christ she was into substance abuse and the occult. She told me she made her own tarot cards and went to a psychic to learn how to read them. Because of this and probably much more I believe that the enemy really has a stronghold (or at least a wide open door) to taunt her. She has frequent demonic dreams with what I believe is occultic significance.
Brenna needs to find herself. She feels like she has no place to call home because she has always just stayed with whatever kind soul would take her in. She has a wall up to protect herself, but in actually prevents her from connecting with safe people.
Over the years, Brenna has told me next to nothing about her past. There is shame there that I don't think she even realizes. What I do know is that she didn't grow up in her family. She was not in foster care, but by her own doing she went from family to family trying to find a place to belong.
Brenna puts on this err of happiness which really makes a deep sadness and grief over not belonging and not knowing where she stands in life. In the few years that I've known Brenna gone back and forth between last names. At first she just wouldn't tell anyone because she really didn't know what to say. Then she began grasping at the last names of significant people in her life. I still don't know what her legal last name is, but I've seen her go through about 8 in the past years. She really does not know who she is.
Last night I was talking and praying with her as she was telling me about her current situation. She said that she can't (won't) get a job because that would mean she doesn't qualify for whatever aid she is getting. I completely understand where she's coming from, but I also know that it comes from a poverty mentality. At this point, she is 25 years old and makes about $100 a week She has not pursued education or any other work.
The thing that concerned me the most from our conversation last night has to do with her naivete. She is extremely naive and because of her self-hatred she doesn't take things seriously when she really should. She has only been a Christian (the long-ranger type) for about two years. Prior to finding Christ she was into substance abuse and the occult. She told me she made her own tarot cards and went to a psychic to learn how to read them. Because of this and probably much more I believe that the enemy really has a stronghold (or at least a wide open door) to taunt her. She has frequent demonic dreams with what I believe is occultic significance.
Brenna needs to find herself. She feels like she has no place to call home because she has always just stayed with whatever kind soul would take her in. She has a wall up to protect herself, but in actually prevents her from connecting with safe people.
