Prayer for peace and my relationship

I met this guy last August who I feel as God revealed was the one for me. He also got the same confirmation but now is saying Im not the one. I have to admit I was a horrible girlfriend over the past 6 months with issues that carried from my past relationship to this one, with selfishness, insecurities, and trust issues. He is an amazing guy and everything that I asked for in a man to God. I was a jerk last Monday over something stupid he didnt do, which he said he was going to do it, and bugged him all day over it. That night he finds out that his sister who was pregnant was being induced the next day, because her baby died and also same night found out that his dad was having health issues and grandpa might have a year left to live. The same night is when he said he dosent think Im the one. We took 36 hours and prayed about it and came back and I still felt as if he was the one and he said no. I asked to give me 2 weeks because our answers were so different to see if God would change one of our hearts and he agreed. He hasnt reached out or even spoke to me when I did reach out and so I stopped and gave him his space. Im so scared that Im not going to have the man that I dreamed and who I honestly feel in my heart is the one because of all my issues. This is week one and I feel God revealing so much to me with all those that I listed that I never would of known if this would of happened. I also prayed 2 prayers a week before my bf felt these things and it was, "please God break my heart for what breaks yours" and also "Lord mold me into the woman you want me to be". I dont know if this time apart and maybe a few months for now is something we need apart so we can grow, or I can grow to become that woman, because God yells at me that hes the one and I have rebuked the devil in Jesus name, so I wouldnt hear him or get it confused. Im asking for prayer for God to touch my life and his during this time and that we both hear and feel the right thing. Im struggling with giving everything over to God, because Im so worried with Brian and I know I should be focusing on what God is doing in my life right now. I am very dissapointed with myself with everything God has revealed to me. I would greatly appreciate the prayers or any advice!!

I disagree lady bug.......I'm not the one with doubt......he is. I have left him alone.....I have prayed for him. I did see him the other night and he told me he loved me but that he hasn't heard a yes or a no......so now his answer changed...he is the one with doubt.....I'm not the one with doubt and I will be just fine without him.....I'm not scared of being single....I didn't want to be in a relationship in the first place but God tore down those walls and I fell in love with him. The truth is... he's struggling on alot more stuff.....he didn't know if he wanted to help his mom with kids at her church ....he dosent know if he should join the church. He's struggling with listening.

I love how quick people think I can't hear from God or they doubt what I hear. Why can't anyone see or think that possible someone else is having a spiritual warfare?

It's all I ask is prayer ......for God to reveal to both of us His plan for our lives. My feelings of him being the one are still there......stronger than ever.