Well this may be the last month for my family. On November 8, my wife can go to the circuit court and ask for our marriage to be dissolved. I pray that she doesn't.
Yesterday we ate lunch together alone for the first time since January, didn't talk about nothing concerning our marriage. I reckon that was good. We been texting more lately, but I have to initiate it. She has called me some nasty names because I have an irrational fear of snakes. Y'all can guess what she called me. I've never heard her use the words she has used before. I'd like to say something back, but I think it's just the devil whispering in her ear and he would love nothing more than for me to strike back.
At lunch yesterday, she looked so beautiful, I wanted to reach across the table and touch her. I guess I couldn't help but smile at her, she thought I was weird. I did ask her for a hug, she gave me some side hug. I told her I want some full frontal hug. She shot me down. I get better hugs from strangers. I get better hugs from bros. I bet I'd get a better hug if I was the male contestant on naked and afraid and the female found me totally repulsive as we were getting extracted.
But then I remember it's just the devil whispering in her ear.
She has asked me 8 times for a separation agreement. 5 times I have told her I would consider and sign one. She has yet to produce one. I don't know if this is good or bad.
I love her and miss her. My wife's name is Amanda. I pray she is happy. I pray she is safe. I pray her heart is softened. I pray God's will for her is done.
I pray our children are not harmed by this. I pray we can raise them effectively.
I pray that our marriage is restored and I can be the man my wife and God needs me to be. Most of all, I pray for Gods will to be done.
Thank you for any prayer y'all can send this way.
Yesterday we ate lunch together alone for the first time since January, didn't talk about nothing concerning our marriage. I reckon that was good. We been texting more lately, but I have to initiate it. She has called me some nasty names because I have an irrational fear of snakes. Y'all can guess what she called me. I've never heard her use the words she has used before. I'd like to say something back, but I think it's just the devil whispering in her ear and he would love nothing more than for me to strike back.
At lunch yesterday, she looked so beautiful, I wanted to reach across the table and touch her. I guess I couldn't help but smile at her, she thought I was weird. I did ask her for a hug, she gave me some side hug. I told her I want some full frontal hug. She shot me down. I get better hugs from strangers. I get better hugs from bros. I bet I'd get a better hug if I was the male contestant on naked and afraid and the female found me totally repulsive as we were getting extracted.
But then I remember it's just the devil whispering in her ear.
She has asked me 8 times for a separation agreement. 5 times I have told her I would consider and sign one. She has yet to produce one. I don't know if this is good or bad.
I love her and miss her. My wife's name is Amanda. I pray she is happy. I pray she is safe. I pray her heart is softened. I pray God's will for her is done.
I pray our children are not harmed by this. I pray we can raise them effectively.
I pray that our marriage is restored and I can be the man my wife and God needs me to be. Most of all, I pray for Gods will to be done.
Thank you for any prayer y'all can send this way.
