prayer?

I don't know anymore. I think I just suck as a human being. I'm gonna leave this site and I ask that you pray for me. I'm starting to get sick of myself again. It just seems like there is this constant negativity coming from me. I feel I'm not properly contributing to anything or anyone here. Meaningless dribble, you know? I can't even hold onto a friendship with anyone because I'm scared of what they might think of me. I'm scared of getting close to anyone. I'm scared of falling in love with people because they always move on. And it hurts like hell when they separate from me. It takes a really long while for me to forget and move on. There is that, and the screwed up part of me. I thought I could start over, but I'll always remind myself how much I'll never be like those who are confident with the faith. I'm always second guessing. And it feels like I deserve hell for doing so. Sometimes I accept the thought like those who accept heaven as their final destination...


Meaningless dribble.


Thank you to those that tried.

*hugs* Don't leave.

Remember that sometimes those who seem the most confident, are the ones that are the most insecure. People are good at pretending.

There are clowns on the stage: fake tears fake smiles
Should we trust all that we see? There is room for doubt

I hope you will not leave, and yes, you are in my daily prayers in Jesus.
Believe it or not, I used to struggle with all the same fears you do, there was a time where simply being invited to another's home would put me into a cold sweat, and even if all went well, I like you would second guess, believing I had made a fool of myself, thinking I must have messed up some where.
Even making a phone call filled me with fear, yes fear, I came to realise my enemy was fear.
I would call out to Jesus, asking for help, never realiseing the destruction fear was bringing me to.
Then one day, while reading revelations, a saw where God spoke to this kind of fear as a sin, it floored me!
I never thought being afraid was a sin, but as I studied more I came to see the only fear we should have is the fear of God's anger.
That pefrect love drives out all fear.
And God's love is perfect.
And that fear involves torment.
I came to see that the fear in my life was a tool of satan to keep me in dispair, so I gave my fear to Jesus, and trusted the rest to God Our Father.
I had to learn to be obedient to God, and step out and forward in faith, even when fear tried to torment me, but I now knew that this torment was from satan, and he was already defeated by Jesus.
Jesus is your victory over fear, dont let the theif take this victory from you, Jesus is and will help you overcome it.
I still have my moments, but Jesus always brings me through them, simply because I came to see that what mattered most?
Was my life in Jesus, not the world.

I dont know if this has helped, but I will keep you in my daily prayers in Jesus.
Believing that you will soon be here again.

In Jesus, God bless
pickles

a man went to his doctors complaining of depression. The doctor said you dont need meds, go to the town square and there's a clown there. His making everyone laugh and anyone who encounters him has physically cheered up and felt more positive after. He said to the doctor, i am the clown.
Its amazing how we influence one another. hang around positive god fearing people and your be the last to see how this influences you but believe me it will.

Lord Jesus, i pray, that you give a Biblical world view, to searching4truth, and teach her to stand for you, Amen

Amen
May God do his will in Jesus name

I am welcoming warriors...we have a had a big challenge these two months for our rentals... both China and Kong Kong. We need warriors here. In two days we have to pay these bills for our both church. We believe your prayers can make a difference in Jesus name.

I pray God will lead you and guide you and enable to do HIs will and empower you to overcome every difficulty. Glory to God.