I graduated from ITT Tech schools last year, earning a massive debt alongside my Associates Degree. I've been unemployed, doing odd jobs for three years, with no end in sight. I spent over a year doing in-home care for a relative with Alzheimer's while I finished school, but now that that is over with, and we've found her a nursing home I am left with whatever $$ I can earn through odd-job computer work, etc.
I'm feeling hopeless, and believe that I have no future. I don't know how that slipped into my head. I used to be such an "on top" person, someone who saw the hope in everything, all the time. But, part of me believes I'm cursed, doomed to fail at everything I put my hand to. That everything I touch turns to ruin and loss. I can't handle the constant rejection by employers. It's become personal due to other influences, and I need a new direction.
My Uncle has been trying to get me to see that I can have what I put my mind to, but it's just not enough. I lack purpose. Motivation has been killed off in my heart. All I can see is a life living off of others, and that makes me feel pathetic. Small. "Lesser".
Please just help me find answers. I think I'm supposed to go into business myself, but I lack the experience and strong motivation right now to do that. (Not to mention the money!!!) If this thing is going to happen, if my life is going to become something I can look at in 50 years and say, "I'm glad I did that", I need to hear from Him.
Thanks in advance.
Michael
I'm feeling hopeless, and believe that I have no future. I don't know how that slipped into my head. I used to be such an "on top" person, someone who saw the hope in everything, all the time. But, part of me believes I'm cursed, doomed to fail at everything I put my hand to. That everything I touch turns to ruin and loss. I can't handle the constant rejection by employers. It's become personal due to other influences, and I need a new direction.
My Uncle has been trying to get me to see that I can have what I put my mind to, but it's just not enough. I lack purpose. Motivation has been killed off in my heart. All I can see is a life living off of others, and that makes me feel pathetic. Small. "Lesser".
Please just help me find answers. I think I'm supposed to go into business myself, but I lack the experience and strong motivation right now to do that. (Not to mention the money!!!) If this thing is going to happen, if my life is going to become something I can look at in 50 years and say, "I'm glad I did that", I need to hear from Him.
Thanks in advance.
Michael