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Hey everyone, I am a new Christian. I want to share my current struggle with you and am hoping for some feedback/advice/hope/so please read on and comment If you can relate or if you feel inspired. I'm 23, I was raised in a Christian family. I fell away at 13, left home. Sex, drugs, rock n roll.. That was my life. I eventually became a prostitute, then became a exotic dancer, and moved from Canaa to Las Vegas to start my adult video career. That was when God found a way to get through to me, when I was in Las vefas. Through dreams, and through family. My mom is really sick and just lost her soul mate on top of her illness, while taking care of my 3 young half siblings. I would call her and she would sound so... Just not ok. I was worried about her safety and health to say the least. She and my sister also discovered my plan to sign the contract with the adult video agency. They both reacted strongly against my desire to sign and become an adult star. My mom kept sending me these Christian audio teachings... They spoke to me. I decided to come home and help her, and walk with Jesus. I didn't sign the contract, and here I am caring for the 3 young children and sometimes her. It's so difficult to say no to the money! The glamour... The nice things.... The attention... The hair, the makeup, the clothes, Los angeles, Florida, oh there are so many things constantly calling my name, so many old connections and friends waiting with open doors and arms.... I'm struggling, BIG TIME with temptation to just go back for a week and make X amount, just one time... But I know what God thinks about workings of iniquity. But the struggle is so very real. My mind justifies and distorts things to the point where it seems ok but the little person deep down tells me to just get some other peoples opinions ask for help and support, because clearly I'm no match for myself and I need Gods help right now, and perhaps he can help me through you. Please comment, if you want or pray for me to resist temptation and for God to deliver me from Darkness and into light. Thank you. God Bless you.