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I just need prayer because while my bf and I have a good relationship for the most part there are a few things that are concerning. I have a history of self-abuse. He didn't know me well then, so he doesn't really know what that looks like in me. In 4 months I have told him once that I felt like cutting. This wasnt because I was going to do it. It was because I've learned that if I confess it before it happens I'm less likely to do it. About 6 weeks before we started dating I told the pastor the same thing. No I didn't cut. It was simply a confession. Truth be told I have cut (or anything) in over 6 months, and I know how to prevent it from happening now. My bf and I have talked about marriage. We seem to be very compatible, but he's concerned about me hurting myself. In his words he's afraid 1) he's gonna come home and find me bleeding in the bathtub and have to rush me to the hospital, and 2) he wants to make sure the person he leaves in the morning is the same person he comes home to. I understand his concern, but I just don't know how I'm supposed to reassure him.
I'm on the search for another accountability partner. The last one and I didn't work out... Partly me and partly her. But I'm very nervous because I've been hurt to much by people who kick me to the wayside because they don't see how much I'm trying. I need someone who realizes I'm going to consider what they say and may or may not apply it. I will pray about their guidance. I also need someone who believes I can do it, and doesn't assume that she understands it all.
I'm on the search for another accountability partner. The last one and I didn't work out... Partly me and partly her. But I'm very nervous because I've been hurt to much by people who kick me to the wayside because they don't see how much I'm trying. I need someone who realizes I'm going to consider what they say and may or may not apply it. I will pray about their guidance. I also need someone who believes I can do it, and doesn't assume that she understands it all.