My friend it took me 5 years from 12 years of marriage no divorce but seperated, I have to go through . this valley alone base on the word of GOD " THOUGH I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil" though you slay me because I sin and continue to do this evil, I fear no evil, "your staff and your rod they comfort me" I knew I have to go through the deepest and the most darkest valley of my life ever and totally naked, absolutely honest, DAVID didn't say if, or when, or how, with human ability, with his strength, he knew he had to go through it in order to walk as man after Gods own heart. I knew in heart there is only one person that can love me through all the pains, rejection, hopelessness, loneliness, jealousy, anger, low selfesteem, confusion and restlessness that person is JESUS O beautiful JESUS, wonderful Saviour my ROSE of Sharon. So I set my heart on the author and the perfect of my faith, I chase Him, I went after the ONE my soul longs for, what ever it will take, how ever, I will find my JESUS the lover of my soul, everything I gave it up, all things just to find HIM. One step at a time, everything begins to fall away, I don't have to struggle anymore, every chambers, every closet, every secrete just fell off, I don't need anyone to lay hand on me, I just needed Jesus alone, all alone with me, for me and in me. I have to change my plans, daily and monthly, 4am-6am compulsory Bible study and prayer, I was planted in a good church never miss a service, I took every message as though God was speaking to me, and I start living it, applying it in my week. I'm a musician so I take time out and go up the hills, walk the beach, tramping with my guitar and worship the Lord. My conduct have to change, my attitude have to be check out and so are behaviour. But I never ever tell anyone anything until I tell the lover of my life all things then He directs, He leads, He convicts and everything just fell off.
NOW HALLELUIA I could imagine how you feel right now and let me promise you this, JESUS, JESUS AND JESUS IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN TOTALLY AND ABSOLUTELLY CAN MAKE YOU WHOLE AGAIN, go away and cry out to HIM ALONE. There is none like JESUS, there is none compare to JESUS. I am standing with you in all my prayers your name will ever an incense before the throne of grace. AMEN PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM.