What it means this time if she gets a divorce..

thanks so much you guys!! it means so much to know you all care

When it rains it pour.

I slept from 1am to 8:20pm today because I got my first migrane....oh it was terrible. I've been headache free for about an hour and a half tho! Praise God! I'm starting to feel a lil upbeat again! Thanks for all the prayers.

blehh. my mom's been on the phone a lot with people...telling them why her marriage is falling apart. i think she's wanting them to say "it'll be okay...stick with it some more." and i think that's what they are saying. i'm sick of this guy. ksdjasalkja!! i want to say why... okay..i'm gonna throw this out here i guess. i don't want to stay here 'cause he's an alcoholic, porn-addict (badly addicted), and he's terrible with money...he doesnt keep track of anything and it costs us $100's of dollars in bank fees. *sigh*

My sister just informed me that she's about 100% positive that we're no longer moving. I hate this. I'm so angry. I want to move.......I'm tired of school, and this guy (my stepdad) , and this city. It's not like I have any friends here anywayz....

:-(

Thanks merry so very much!

Hey Bets, Like you i had a really hard time coming up with our mom being divorced at a fairly early age and raising three boys with no help from our father, like your stepdad he was all about himself and his desires to the point that our mom had had enough and made a decision to divorce him. I was 10 years old and had never really gotten along with my dad because it seemed he favored my two older brothers. I had accepted Christ at the age of 8 and really relied on him in this time of crisis in our family. As the parable of the sower goes I wasn't planted in very good soil and grew farther and farther from the lord. I would lie to get my way and the whole time I was doing this there were people that God had placed around me to encourage me back to Faith in Jesus. Until i met a friend that actually poured out Gods Love and Grace to me it was then that i realized that God was with me the whole time and had never never left my side. The things that i had gone through were for God's Perfect Plan in my life and so that I could encorage others to just be still and know that he is God and that he cares for us maybe even more than we have realized to this point. I cannot minister to someone who has had certain tragedies that i havent gone through in my life but i can testify that through the hardships that i endured growing up that he(God) is Faithful to me even when i havent been to him. I pray even today that where you are you will keep your eyes on him and dont look back because he is taking you through a time of preparation for your future in Christ Jesus. That as Jeremiah 29 vs 11 says that he has thoughts toward you and your future plans of Hope. It is in Christ alone today that has brought me through not only growing up but in the everyday trials that I face in Him. I think differently about the things that come my way now that i had no choice in, just as the three hebrew children had the fourth person there with them in the fire! My heart breaks for you and I will continually keep you and your family,including the stepdad in my prayers!
Greg

Thank you so much Greg!! I'm trying to stick strong in my Father. I know that even when i doubt and start losing my grip that He is alwayz there. Sometimes I don't even understand how even when I act childish and don't give Him the time of day, how I still believe He's standing at my side....but I really really do. I think this whole ordeal is pushing me towards something new...I'm thinking I might start saving money to move faster than I thought. I don't want to leave my sister, but I can't just keep sticking around either. I'm tired of this mess. We'll see where He leads me...I'm trying to find that guidance and assurance that moving is the right thing to do.....and where.

awwwwwwwwwwwwww thanks jenni!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 yahh i feel like i've taken my sister on as my own burden or something ..even tho she isnt my responsibility. but i still feel bad.....

I've found a place to live :-] I'm going to move in with Shiningthrupain a.k.a. Laura!! I've already been accepted to the community college up there. I'll be switching over insurance companies in the next two months and getting ready to pack. A few problems still lie tho. The jobs that I have have really slowed down...my first job cut my hours in half...and now @ my second job my boss doesnt answer the door on Saturdays! Twice now he hasnt let me in. I knocked four times, called twice, and sat outside for 20 minutes. So pretty much that job is cut in half too! So instead of making over 300 dollars i'm making roughly 150...my insurance is $78 and my phone bill is $40...that leaves pretty much only gas money! So I can't save money for moving. I have enough money to move but it stinks that I can't keep filling my bank account in the meantime.

Also, my family is really frustrating me!! Lots of my dad's side of that family & my dad included back me up 100% in my choice. They agree isn't not a good situation to live in and that this is the best decision. My mom the day I told her said "I want you to do what makes you happy" and "sometimes it's good to get away from family for awhile" and also "just give us some heads up and we'll take your bed and dresser up for you." But after speaking to my grandma now she's pretty much saying the opposite..that I shouldn't move. Then my grandma sends me a letter PRIORITY mail...stating that she's really disappointed in me, that I must have turned my back on God because I'm no longer following his plan (how can she know God's plan for me?), and that I must be depressed 'cause I'm no longer thinking clearly. It was really frustrating. Then she's playing the guilt card on me about my little sister. I've always done things around my little sister 'cause I was afraid of what would happen if I left. But frankly I can't stick around my whole life for her. She isn't my responsibility...I've taken care of her for quite awhile...but she's not my child. I'll keep in-touch but I'm not staying just 'cause of her. God will provide for her & protect her! but yah...I'll close it up for now. But I'd appreciate some prayer still if you don't mind. I'm not sure my mom's going to be supportive anymore...so I might just be moving me and my boxes to Michigan instead of having a dresser and bed..

Betsy check out Ecclesiastes 3

Maybe that will be some help to ya!Nothing better than God's Promises in His word!


Love ya girl and i promise that this will only last for a short season... Gods got Reasons for the seasons!

AKA


The Puzzle Piece!