every battle is different. satan would'nt want us to create a on sise fits all cure.
and if you feel bad about how you're doing, think job.
does it Ever make sense what we're going through?
you and I, we are quite similar in these respects. I don't know how to help you. for me I went dark for 3 years, but that is not ideal. find people you can trust, and share. sharing is the key.
or that. and, if you are, find someone who knows things, because my only advice is "you will probably heal eventually." but whatever you do, don't reject your faith. cus I did.