please, don’t think like that. God is looking to you always. He knows every details of your life even the things you don’t know yet about yourself. Come to God and surrender everything. God bless you.
Trust God in everything, no matter what. Even when it hurts, even when you don’t understand things, even there’s a lot of questions in your mind, TRUST GOD. As long as you pray and lay it all to God, rest assured, HE GOT YOU!
I just really need endurance and to become more dependent on God. Praying that as I fight and continue on this life, I will depend on His strength, not on my own. thank you. God bless 😊