Abused

When I was 13, I got involved with church. It was right after my mother had gotten lung cancer, I had gotten saved, and then she was healed. I started singing in the choir, joined the church, got baptized, served on the drama team, gave devotions in youth group, and a lot of other stuff, I just don't want to bore you. I was 13 and my parents were not Christians. I rode the church van home from church every Sunday and Wednesday. After I got comfortable and settled into church, I noticed my youth director letting me go home last on the church van and choosing me to be in leadership positions over the rest of the youth. Some of the youth got mad and left our church. It was very evident, I just didn't understand why he chose me. But after a few rides on the church van, I figured out why. He didn't like me for my personality or even my Christ like attitude. He was going down a path that would hurt me more than I ever realized. That began the three years that I was sexually abused. I was threatened with his status in the community and as a new Christian, I thought that everyone's salvation that he had lead to Christ would be thrown down the drain and it wouldn't matter. For three years I thought I was holding the community's salvation in my hands. He was a basketball coach who took the team to state and he was wonderful in the community, but behind his mask, was somebody that only I seen. I played it off like nothing was going on. Defense mechanisms set up in me like I dont understand and probably never will. I was lost and confused. I finally told my boyfriend which was probably the hardest thing I had to do up until that point. I was an only child, my original parents were still married and life was great.....up until I got abused. It was not a one time thing. Every church ride home for 3 years became an abuse session. It took me 2 years after the abuse to realize that I didn't do anything wrong and that God loves me. I finally told and it has been a year that it has been out of court. I am not going to say I was never angry that it happened, but God has opened a lot of doors for me to helpother people with this issue. It has made me a lot stronger person. I still go to the same church because I dont want to run away from issues when they arise. God has taught me a lot and I am to the point where I am thankful for God using this situation for great things. I am to the point that I am glad I can help others throughit. Thank you Lord for Your deliverance and Your daily strength as I have recovered. If there is anyone out there going through this or have a question, please feel free to message me on here. I know that many of you have read this, but for some reason, God told me to share it again! God Bless y'all!

God bless you for your faith and resilience.
Jesus loves you so much to let you go through that so you can help others.
Remember, not a sparrow falls that He doesn't see.
And you are highly esteemed in His eyes.

Yes, He does! He loves everyone of us so much! We all go through valleys, but God always brings us up to the mountain! God bless you, Rick!

AMEN it truly is wonderful how God works everything for his glory thanks for your testimony

Stay Blessed

God definitely works through situations! I am blessed to be used by God! God bless you!

Thank you for being obedient to God and sharing. Your testimony is a tool to reach people for Christ. Keep telling people.

your testimony is a treasure waiting for someone to find that really needs it. thank you for reposting this glory to God amen

Dear sweet God, why does it hurt so when we feel the pain of others. Please use this testimony of deliverence & use it in a way that may multiply the hope & your help dear lord for many others. Thank you that thru such a sad time fruitfulness can still be seen thru you. We are eturnaly greatful, & respectful for your control in all things.

Some days are still very painful, but other days, like today, I can see the beauty in the world through God's creation. I can see the good in the people. The sun that's shining brightly and I can smell the fresh summer air starting to come in. God is good. He created people who are good and He placed love in our hearts so that we can share the purity of His heart with others. God bless each and every person who has read this piece of my testimony. Please feel free to message me if you have any questions about this experience or just want to talk.

Hello friend my name is Desmond and I was interested in recording your testimony for others to view, if you are interested in sharing for the glory of God please contact me , thanks for your time and God bless

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I am so grieved in my spirit that you ever went through such a thing. If you were my child, I would hold you close and cry with you. But I'm sure by this point you have done your share of crying.
I have heard testimony of many that have gone through similar things such as you, but they have not found the hope and peace that you have found through our Lord, Jesus Christ. Can you even imagine not having that? Not having those days that you feel strong in Him? What do you think happens to those people? I can tell you cause I have witnessed it. They are turned towards drugs, fornication (some even prostitution), depression (mostly suicidal), disillusions (fabrication of stories and lies to get attention), and many other self-destructive things.
I share the gospel with them. Some hear and receive. Others do not.
It is written that His strength is made perfect in our weakness. You have a strength in Him that some do not. You have a testimony of God's spirit that others need to hear. Bear witness and testify of what the Lord has done for you. Do not be discouraged if many won't receive it. Be like Abraham in that if there is only a few that will hear and receive the word of God, they might be saved.
God has set you free from the penalties of sin. This includes any sin that was done against you. Therefore, you are a virgin in the sight of God. You are His precious child. You have a heart that desires to serve Him and thus God calls you a good and faithful servant.
Do not listen to the lies of the enemy. You are not defiled and any man that is submitting himself to the authority of our Lord shall see you as clean and a blessed child of the Most High God.
Continue to walk upright in the statutes of our God and do not ever be ashamed. Remember that the slave women in Egypt were subjected to very much, yet God loved them and saw fit to set them free.
You are free and your liberty is through our Lord, Jesus Christ. Let God be true and every man be a liar.
Grace and peace be to you through our Lord and savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.

Markum- I will be honest with you. There are days where I have went without that peace. I know what that feels like. There was a very short time where I was terrified of men...God being one of them. That's when I went without peace. Those were the dark days, many filled with depression. Now, I didn't let this go on long, but it did go on. I will be honest about any questions anyone has concerning how I felt, what or happened or any details. But now, thankfully, I do feel that peace and I do feel that assurance. That true peace came when I learned how to forgive. That day, I had a new pep in my step. God set me free!