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Baptistchild

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Hi. I'm a 14 year old Baptist and I just hope I'm doing this right. Here's my testimony
. About two years ago my parents got divorced. My mom is a drunk. She smokes and made me by her beer, cigarettes, and gas. She would steal money from me if I ever had any.
Well she was going to go to a funeral and stole my birthday money while I was at a neighbors house. When I came home before she did I notice it was gone. I told my dad .and he made her leave. I was convinced that it was my fault. I ruined my family. I fell into depression before. Here I am not even in my mid teens and I can already say I've cut myself, thought no one cares. I would get into fights with my cousin to make say he was sorry BC all I wanted was attention and thought I wasn't getting any. My dad always had to work BC he quit his job. The way I followed my cousin everyone thought I wanted to date him. But all I really wantes was attention. BC I wasn't getting any. My friends and teachers notice but I didn't until I cut myself. My family never noticed. I finally pulled back out all on my own. No pills or support. Then I started going to church about a year ago. I went through a lot in these last two years. I lost my mom, one of my dogs died, one of my horses died, my grandma died, my two best friends moved away, my parents got divorced, had to deal with half my whole family trying to make me GIRLY. And I went through a depression. Cried myself to sleep ever night for a month when I found out my grandma was dieing. They told me she wouldn't know me. That scared me so bad. And on the nights that I still grieve I pray that she did know me. I knew she was dying before the doctors something g told me it was the end. But its OK. I skipped a lot I. This and I'm sorry but i think i mentioned everything that happened. Im now im in the church band and im as happy as ever
 
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Animus

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What instrument do you play?!
 
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MTplainsman

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You've been dragged pretty hard for your age. I feel for you my friend, when it rains it pours sometimes. What amazes me, is that being in your teens, not letting all these trials break you, and the fact that so many your age are prone to slip deeper... here you are! You made your way to a Christian site and full of courage, you just let 'er rip in front of us all. Good for you my friend and praise Jesus for picking you up off the battle ground. I think with what you went through and where you now are at your age, are makings of a super-Christian, a flat out soldier of God. You just keep seeking Christ and don't loose focus, and you will become very powerful in this world. God bless you my friend and if you need any help along the way, feel free to pm me. I made a prayer for you. Joel
 
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ji

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Hi. I'm a 14 year old Baptist and I just hope I'm doing this right. Here's my testimony
. About two years ago my parents got divorced. My mom is a drunk. She smokes and made me by her beer, cigarettes, and gas. She would steal money from me if I ever had any.
Well she was going to go to a funeral and stole my birthday money while I was at a neighbors house. When I came home before she did I notice it was gone. I told my dad .and he made her leave. I was convinced that it was my fault. I ruined my family. I fell into depression before. Here I am not even in my mid teens and I can already say I've cut myself, thought no one cares. I would get into fights with my cousin to make say he was sorry BC all I wanted was attention and thought I wasn't getting any. My dad always had to work BC he quit his job. The way I followed my cousin everyone thought I wanted to date him. But all I really wantes was attention. BC I wasn't getting any. My friends and teachers notice but I didn't until I cut myself. My family never noticed. I finally pulled back out all on my own. No pills or support. Then I started going to church about a year ago. I went through a lot in these last two years. I lost my mom, one of my dogs died, one of my horses died, my grandma died, my two best friends moved away, my parents got divorced, had to deal with half my whole family trying to make me GIRLY. And I went through a depression. Cried myself to sleep ever night for a month when I found out my grandma was dieing. They told me she wouldn't know me. That scared me so bad. And on the nights that I still grieve I pray that she did know me. I knew she was dying before the doctors something g told me it was the end. But its OK. I skipped a lot I. This and I'm sorry but i think i mentioned everything that happened. Im now im in the church band and im as happy as ever
When you go through so much sufferings and you go back to God for comfort and peace,realize God loves you very much and he is strengthening you to meet him in the long run.I lost my elder bro in an accident,my mother passed away in sleep suddenly,went through so many career problems,depression,demonic attacks(like panic attack,several times in a row),suicidal tendencies,tried to end life one time and God literally pulled me up from death by his spirit,saw my body transforming into almost invisible crystalline spiritual body.
Its a vision that made me come to Christ.Then and there through all the doubts i had about future i realized the path wasn't going to be a wide road riding a Bugatti.
Rejoice,Our Lord Christ is waiting for us at the shores of Heaven when we valiantly overcome this world by His Grace.

Matthew 7:13-14

13 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat:
14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.

God Bless.
 
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Baptistchild

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I play the guitar fiddle and mandolin
 
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AgeofKnowledge

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I have to agree with you. What warrior this kid is. I'd be happy to have a son like that. In fact, I'd be PROUD to have a son like that. I think he really needs to be deeply involved with a great youth pastor and youth group. People who will speak life, hope, and wisdom into his life. People who care deeply about him. People who can see how much God loves him. What a David this young man is. He's already a prince of the kingdom of God. I hope he grasps that.

What amazes me, is that being in your teens, not letting all these trials break you, and the fact that so many your age are prone to slip deeper... here you are!
 
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TashMeyer76

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Do you sing? God showed me a young woman standing with both her hands raised in complete abandon and surrender, around her the heavenly hosts bowed their heads and worshipped the Lord Almighty. You are that girl, God has got such a wonderful future planned for you, our hardships we sometimes have to endure are simply learning curves in the Great plan of God.

You remember the story of Joseph? His brothers sold him to traders, ended up in Egypt, was accused of treason, thrown in prison, raised up to be the servant in Pharaoh's house, in order to one day save his family.... he had no easy life. Keep the faith lady - you're a strong girl with a Mighty God on your side.
 
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sjgmercy

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Keep up the faith young one, you're doing great and are a very special young women. Keep seeking Christ and the hard times don't seem as bad. God bless you.
 
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Baptistchild

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I do. I love to sing.
 
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Baptistchild

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Thank you for the complement. Thought I must say I am a girl. But that's OK. God bless you all
 
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Baptistchild, I'm so thankful that you've shared your story here, and that you are doing better. My daughter is your age, also not girly at all, and she had a very difficult time when her father left. A lot of anger and confusion and heartache. I can imagine what you went through, and are still probably working to heal from.

God is good. He loves us and all the things we go through are to help us grow spiritually. I'm proud of you for getting through that terrible place in your life, and coming out of it giving praise to God. Your story and experience can help other teenagers survive their own struggles. God will use you for his kingdom.
 
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Hi. I'm a 14 year old Baptist and I just hope I'm doing this right. Here's my testimony
. About two years ago my parents got divorced. My mom is a drunk. She smokes and made me by her beer, cigarettes, and gas. She would steal money from me if I ever had any.
Well she was going to go to a funeral and stole my birthday money while I was at a neighbors house. When I came home before she did I notice it was gone. I told my dad .and he made her leave. I was convinced that it was my fault. I ruined my family. I fell into depression before. Here I am not even in my mid teens and I can already say I've cut myself, thought no one cares. I would get into fights with my cousin to make say he was sorry BC all I wanted was attention and thought I wasn't getting any. My dad always had to work BC he quit his job. The way I followed my cousin everyone thought I wanted to date him. But all I really wantes was attention. BC I wasn't getting any. My friends and teachers notice but I didn't until I cut myself. My family never noticed. I finally pulled back out all on my own. No pills or support. Then I started going to church about a year ago. I went through a lot in these last two years. I lost my mom, one of my dogs died, one of my horses died, my grandma died, my two best friends moved away, my parents got divorced, had to deal with half my whole family trying to make me GIRLY. And I went through a depression. Cried myself to sleep ever night for a month when I found out my grandma was dieing. They told me she wouldn't know me. That scared me so bad. And on the nights that I still grieve I pray that she did know me. I knew she was dying before the doctors something g told me it was the end. But its OK. I skipped a lot I. This and I'm sorry but i think i mentioned everything that happened. Im now im in the church band and im as happy as ever
Thanks for sharing, and I am believing God for you in this - Know that our Identity is in Christ, and given to us by Christ - That God sees you as precious, as worthy to be loved(beloved), to know Him, is to love Him, He desires your attention, and your heart - know that He is available, no matter what you feel.
 
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mellowED

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I agree with all my brothers and sisters in Christ. You've had it tough, to be so young. You hang in there
and keep looking to God for support, and keep playing them strings.
God bless
 
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Laureen

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You are an amazing girl. I love your story. Rely on God completely and you will see his wonders. Love you girl. Keep praising him.
 

Aisaiah

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Wauw... God loves you so much! He strengthened you where i probably would have given up on life a million times. Im srry to hear to started cutting ill keep you in prayer but im sure youll continue to grow closer to God and tricks of the enemy will never ever claim a grip on you again! He's so jealous that you are getting closer to Gods truth and will be baptized (if youre not already) by his holyness and becoming shared heirs with Christ himselve! (rom8:17) the most blessed warriors go trough the hardest times i came to find out. Read Job.

I love you my sister! Keep faith. In Christ Jesus i am -amen-