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Hi. I'm a 14 year old Baptist and I just hope I'm doing this right. Here's my testimony
. About two years ago my parents got divorced. My mom is a drunk. She smokes and made me by her beer, cigarettes, and gas. She would steal money from me if I ever had any.
Well she was going to go to a funeral and stole my birthday money while I was at a neighbors house. When I came home before she did I notice it was gone. I told my dad .and he made her leave. I was convinced that it was my fault. I ruined my family. I fell into depression before. Here I am not even in my mid teens and I can already say I've cut myself, thought no one cares. I would get into fights with my cousin to make say he was sorry BC all I wanted was attention and thought I wasn't getting any. My dad always had to work BC he quit his job. The way I followed my cousin everyone thought I wanted to date him. But all I really wantes was attention. BC I wasn't getting any. My friends and teachers notice but I didn't until I cut myself. My family never noticed. I finally pulled back out all on my own. No pills or support. Then I started going to church about a year ago. I went through a lot in these last two years. I lost my mom, one of my dogs died, one of my horses died, my grandma died, my two best friends moved away, my parents got divorced, had to deal with half my whole family trying to make me GIRLY. And I went through a depression. Cried myself to sleep ever night for a month when I found out my grandma was dieing. They told me she wouldn't know me. That scared me so bad. And on the nights that I still grieve I pray that she did know me. I knew she was dying before the doctors something g told me it was the end. But its OK. I skipped a lot I. This and I'm sorry but i think i mentioned everything that happened. Im now im in the church band and im as happy as ever
. About two years ago my parents got divorced. My mom is a drunk. She smokes and made me by her beer, cigarettes, and gas. She would steal money from me if I ever had any.
Well she was going to go to a funeral and stole my birthday money while I was at a neighbors house. When I came home before she did I notice it was gone. I told my dad .and he made her leave. I was convinced that it was my fault. I ruined my family. I fell into depression before. Here I am not even in my mid teens and I can already say I've cut myself, thought no one cares. I would get into fights with my cousin to make say he was sorry BC all I wanted was attention and thought I wasn't getting any. My dad always had to work BC he quit his job. The way I followed my cousin everyone thought I wanted to date him. But all I really wantes was attention. BC I wasn't getting any. My friends and teachers notice but I didn't until I cut myself. My family never noticed. I finally pulled back out all on my own. No pills or support. Then I started going to church about a year ago. I went through a lot in these last two years. I lost my mom, one of my dogs died, one of my horses died, my grandma died, my two best friends moved away, my parents got divorced, had to deal with half my whole family trying to make me GIRLY. And I went through a depression. Cried myself to sleep ever night for a month when I found out my grandma was dieing. They told me she wouldn't know me. That scared me so bad. And on the nights that I still grieve I pray that she did know me. I knew she was dying before the doctors something g told me it was the end. But its OK. I skipped a lot I. This and I'm sorry but i think i mentioned everything that happened. Im now im in the church band and im as happy as ever
