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my testimonee
well due to my lack of speaking abilities and my preferance to typing i got help on presenting my testimonee to the youth group i go to on wednesdays and since the college group i go to on thursdays goes to the youth group as well i didnt have to repeat it thankfully as i am not strong in the least at public speaking i am shy not really one to trust ppl completely yet and still working alot of things out =] and now i have trailed off topic my apologies anyways before i accepted God completely and Jesus as my savior i did alot of bad things alcohol marijuana pills of many sorts finding ways to boost my adrenaline [getting in 60 mile an hour car wrecks with friends without my seatbelt on throwing myself into a rapid river to test my strength or something i dont totally remember if i even thought that one out but the car wreck i did] anyways those sorta... well not sorta those did lead to depression to a major extent and ive attempted to take my own life more than once all times ive failed..... well actually reading this its obvious i failed but yea... anyways God finally managed to get through my think calculating logical skull by putting the right people in my life at the right times and answering questions i had when i needed them most about 2 years ago now give or take a few months i had my heart broken by a girl that claimed to be christian i didnt understand how someone who was truly a christian could do that to someone looking back on it all i should have realized she was lost cuz she had been dabbling in wiccan things such as tarot cards and revealing attire but being a young stuborn basically blind stuborn child i ignored all that and pursued what should have been an obvious relationship to fail but went for it anyways in case those of you who read this far havnt realized i have attention deficit disorder and trail off alot i apologize i think again also i apologize for the lengthliness of this message anyways im going to shorten it God showed me that he truly does care that he is the way to everlasting life and im trying to be more positive now because lately ive been a rather negative individual though i still have trouble talking about any of my problems to others i do my best not to let that invade the happiness of others by turning me bitter after all most of my problems are just things that i have no control over and i need to learn to just accept that God has everything under control after all he is all powerful because i feel that if he can change someone like me he can change anyone who truly wants to be helped due to this being 2:30ish in the morning i didnt wana read this again so i hope this makes any sort of sense to anyone who reads this all the way through
well due to my lack of speaking abilities and my preferance to typing i got help on presenting my testimonee to the youth group i go to on wednesdays and since the college group i go to on thursdays goes to the youth group as well i didnt have to repeat it thankfully as i am not strong in the least at public speaking i am shy not really one to trust ppl completely yet and still working alot of things out =] and now i have trailed off topic my apologies anyways before i accepted God completely and Jesus as my savior i did alot of bad things alcohol marijuana pills of many sorts finding ways to boost my adrenaline [getting in 60 mile an hour car wrecks with friends without my seatbelt on throwing myself into a rapid river to test my strength or something i dont totally remember if i even thought that one out but the car wreck i did] anyways those sorta... well not sorta those did lead to depression to a major extent and ive attempted to take my own life more than once all times ive failed..... well actually reading this its obvious i failed but yea... anyways God finally managed to get through my think calculating logical skull by putting the right people in my life at the right times and answering questions i had when i needed them most about 2 years ago now give or take a few months i had my heart broken by a girl that claimed to be christian i didnt understand how someone who was truly a christian could do that to someone looking back on it all i should have realized she was lost cuz she had been dabbling in wiccan things such as tarot cards and revealing attire but being a young stuborn basically blind stuborn child i ignored all that and pursued what should have been an obvious relationship to fail but went for it anyways in case those of you who read this far havnt realized i have attention deficit disorder and trail off alot i apologize i think again also i apologize for the lengthliness of this message anyways im going to shorten it God showed me that he truly does care that he is the way to everlasting life and im trying to be more positive now because lately ive been a rather negative individual though i still have trouble talking about any of my problems to others i do my best not to let that invade the happiness of others by turning me bitter after all most of my problems are just things that i have no control over and i need to learn to just accept that God has everything under control after all he is all powerful because i feel that if he can change someone like me he can change anyone who truly wants to be helped due to this being 2:30ish in the morning i didnt wana read this again so i hope this makes any sort of sense to anyone who reads this all the way through