Ok though rather long I understand that as a christian this is a must. I first came to Christ while I was still in high school shortly before school let out for the day after I was approached by a friend and asked rather or not I was a Christian. After telling them no and being asked if I wanted to accept Him as my Lord and Savior after being witnessed to I kindly told them yes and that I had a bus to catch in order to go home. I lived right on and off throughout high school until a week before I graduated when my girl friend broke up with me. At which point I chose to go my own way and haven't been to church in about six and a half years now except for a christmas function and a few other things here and there. After being out on my own for a couple of years I finally got married on January 3, 2006. In september of the same year my wife gave birth to my son who is now 3 and was born on 09/12/2006. Unfortunately last year after having not been right with God for so long and not being in church and so forth my wife left me in June of 2008. While she and I were seperated I saught out love in the wrong places and ended up seeing a girl from Pennsylvania. After that relationship went south at the end of August of 2008 I decided to make things right with God and try to pull my marriage back together. So in either September or October of that year I asked if I could go see my son and she kindly agreed. Coincidentally she was stressed about things so I allowed her to lean back into my arms just more or less as a way of saying I'm willing to make this work if you are. So I spent the remainder of the year trying to make my marriage work. It was in either January or February of this year I realized that I had something missing from my life. I realized that I had only been going through the motions. I was listening to my bosses radio while I was putting gas in her car one morning when I heard the advertisement for the movie Fireproof. Not being able to remember the title I heard it again a few days later and committed it to memory. I sought out the title and watched it after coming home from work one night. Having gotten nothing out of it I watched it again the following day. BUT...the difference was that I asked God to show me and teach me what I needed to know. I sat down and watched it all the way through again. Realizing that I wasn't right with Him I prayed to Him for what seemed like hours. Begging Him to change my life and praying in faith that He would. My wife had asked me for change and that's what I had set out to do. I went out and purchased the book The Love Dare and asked her to give me 40 days. I committed to it faithfully willing to follow God through it all (and still am mind you). She agreed to it and permitted me 40 days and if she still didn't want it to work then we would go our own way. So...40 days later and me having committed to change and continuing onward she elected not to work things out...so we decided to end it. I went my own way broken but knowing God would see me through. I trust in the Lord with all my heart to this day. I realize now that I am single that there is so much more to learn from God than I had realized before. I learned that this time and this season approaching me is a time to lean on Him and focus on Him.