Pornography addiction

I'm 16, name is elijah.


I was about 7 or so when I "got saved" I grew up in a big church, about after I "got saved" I stopped going to church, at a young age I hung out with the wrong people, at age 11 I knew more about sex then probably any teenager did. At age 12 a bunch of my friends were older then me and they started talking about girls, and things about girls I've never seen. I got curious and wanted to know what the ruckus was about. So at age 12, I looked at my first Internet picture, as my life went on it was a every day thing, at Least two times a day. My parents separated at age just turned 12.

Porn was still controlling my life, it went from regularly pictures to videos to just things people would think I disgusting. We got back in church when my mom re-married and I just turned 13. And there was a family at church that changed my life, I wanted to be like them. There was a girl in the family that I really liked and I just wanted to be good enough for her. Porn was still an addiction, when I finally figured out what I was doing with my life I went to the alter and started crying saying God to forgive me. I thought I was done for sure, go back home, sometimes that night I'd go back. It was a I be at the alter and crying saying I'm done, but I'd always end up doing it again,

I would tell people how I was addicted and was over it, but I would still be as addicted as ever. Well it's still a struggle to stay away from it, but the more I get into the word, the more I pray the less I wanna do it. I'm free now. As I was going through it, in the back of my mind the devil was there saying "Elijah, Elijah, hey take that knife and kill yourself, your useless, what girl will ever wanna be with you? Your stupid" suicide always was there, I came close one time, it's by God's great grace I'm still alive. The devil still tries to get me, suicidal thoughts are always there, but my God is bigger then any sin! God gave me a purpose and I'm on my journey to fulfill it! Last August I announced my calling to ministry! I honestly feel its the youth ministry! If there is one thing I learned, when you are sinning, God doesn't look down on you and say "you have no future" he says "I'm going to use that sinful life to glorify me later on in life if you allow me to" God wants to use your testimony, weather it's drugs, sex, or you lived a good life, God wants you. I never did have sex, and I'm beyond grateful for that. I have a bracelet and a ring for true love waits. I use to not respect girls at all and be a player, now it just makes me mad when I see a guy mistreat a girl, honor and respect girls, I have the for king and country bracelet. Guys treat girls the way you want your son to treat them, the way you want your son-in-law to treat your daughter.

For guys and girls, "do what you want your future husband/wife to be doing.

People you don't have to live in sin, God forgives! And he lives you so so much! You have a purpose! It takes patience, but you'll find it one day, no matter if its preaching, or if its feeding cows, you have a purpose.

-Elijah, James 4:7, Galatians 1:10, Hebrews 13:5-5, Jeremiah 29:11.

I think if you really studied the Bible correctly you will find that you were not saved at 7, and maybe you are now, ?? Please read the book of 1 john and see if you have the ear marks of a true born of God person. Do you love the light of God? Do you love Jesus the light of God? do you walk in the light? Do you keep the commandments of God? Do you live a righteous life? Or do you live in sin? Do you love the children of God? and lastly the book says if you are born of God you will believe in Jesus. Do you pass the test? Love to all, Hoffco

My bad, I meant to add, I believe when I was young I got saved because I was scared of not going to heaven. It was a get outta hell from card. I think I truly got saved at 14 or so. I have read 1st John btw.

do you pass it?do you bear a weak minded person in faith through Christ?
Its because of people like you pointing finger that many get delayed Healing,shame!!and i mean it...its a shame..

you have guts!!!,keep moving in God.Don't look at others.May God Bless you continuously to permanently heal you,where it took me years to understand as the seniors(around me) themselves were weak in it and do things much weird than people who confess and, then these same old avoid those who needed help.
i would call you a sloth if you came here,bluff in lounge and went.Now you are encouraging others in the same situation.May God Bless you a million times over and make others come to Christ through you..
Never give up,Because Jesus never gives up on us
He doesn't look at weak angrily,but look at the proud like some here are.And i am not ashamed to expose them,be it any nation.Let me banned from here,but shame on these older generation which doesn't have the spine to correct others with love and where they themselves never overcame.
Age doesn't bring maturity,God does....
Don't look for reputation on earth,for such have already received their reward.There are many coming here looking for help.Be glad you are of help those who are afraid to speak up.That is the Power of Grace.

ADDICTION LOOSES ITS POWER WHEN WE GIVE IT NO MORE VALUE..sorry for the typo,but had to use it.
Love of God can Heal where we fail and when He Heals its permanent,its not self righteousness.

Being Saved doesn't make you perfect,its the beginning step.Continue to Grow in Christ.Addictions will all be gone in the long run.Do not pay heed to cowards(be it whatever age) who scares you with bible verses and never know how to talk and deal with compassion.
Overcomers don't come up in an instant,its a progress.Look at Christ,not at people....His compassion can change us.People are good at hurting and warning because of lack of wisdom.
And May God lead you to compassionate circles where you develop the zeal to overcome everything that keeps you away from God.
God Blessyou are the man,even though you are a kid.

Thanks for sharing. Pornography is something that many people struggle with but are afraid to talk about. It is encouraging to see that you are now free from it and that you have a new found respect for women. God bless you and your journey in ministry!

i don't think women are free form it either...respect is mutual,that's why these filthy activities enter into this world,speaking of which i had a strange message regarding my own situations recently..i don't respect all women,especially the ones who peak into my life and those who walk purposefully to expose their flesh..
Once i thought pornography,loose talk and things like that are greatest prob.But i think that its just the beginning.Its all rooted in self pride.The moment i realized it,situations and problems just doubled..but yea,now the area that i need to focus on overcoming has changed so has the burden

ACCEPT HELP FROM THE GOD OF MERCY
Being imperfect, we all struggle to subdue fleshly desires and do what is right in God’s eyes. (Romans 7:21-25) God is aware of this, “remembering that we are dust.” (Psalm 103:14) Sometimes, though, a Christian may commit a serious sin. Is his situation hopeless? By no means! Granted, the wrongdoer may reap bitter fruitage, as did King David. Nevertheless, God is always “ready to forgive” those who are contrite and “openly confess” their sins.—Psalm 86:5; James 5:16; Proverbs 28:13.

If the world was full of this kind of insight,i don't think many evil things would have sprouted up...

Elijah I want to tell you that pornography is a sin, it is rampant in our society and is often as visible as turning on the TV. The urges that you are feeling are natural urges but you are in control of your own body. I know in those teenage years you feel pushes and pulls. That's part of the growing up you do. The reason the Bible is against masturbation is very simple, sex is a blessing from God and is to be used when you are married and in the creation of children. [h=3]Psalm 127:3-5[/h]English Standard Version (ESV)

[SUP]3 [/SUP]Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
[SUP]4 [/SUP]Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children[SUP][a][/SUP] of one's youth.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.[SUP][b]

Now please understand that your urges are leading you and you need to control them, not the other way around. And I will tell you that it is not easy. Their are many things of this world that will lead you astray from God's great purpose for you. If you need guidance I would go to your church leaders and ask them, also you might want to talk to your parents. But understand you are not alone in this. This subject has been a huge debate for a very long time. Here's a link that might help you understand how different religions see this subject.

Religious views on masturbation - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia[/SUP]

You are wise beyond your years with the right choices and heart for god. You will make some girl a very proud wife one day. Porn is hard for adult men and good on you for understanding the wrong of it at a young age.