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I recall a scripture, "He that is forgiven much, loves much." That had certainly been true in my case. After my conversion on that prison cell toilet, I began to read the Word diligently for hours daily, always praying throughout the day. In time I became sensitive and compassionate, and began to step out in faith, seeing God reward my obedience with miracles that many called coincidence, but that I knew were the handiwork of God. The transformation in my life had been a miracle in itself.
Unfortunately, after nearly two years I backslid, and it had been true, that "...seven demons worse that the first came to roost in my house which had been swept clean." (Sorry, but I can't recall the location of the scriptural quotes, but I'm sure the senor members of this forum can verify their legitimacy). And so, I became enslaved to drunken, riotous living (or I should write: dying). Over the years, I made several attempts to come back to the Lord, but I had been unsuccessful due to the fact that I had not been ready to forsake All my fleshly addictions. One addiction that the world tries to convince everyone is "normal" seemed impossible to defeat. I would often become angry at God because of it. There was no way that I could grant legitimacy to it as the world has done, because no matter how deeply I sank into the darkness, the Light of God's Love still shone through: I could never deny the Truth, because it still lived in my heart of hearts!
So that I don't end up writing a book here, I will let it be known that I have finally been delivered from this condition that the world will tell you is normal. The Lord has since revealed to me that we are all born into sin, and that, for some reason that only God knows, I'm sure, we each are born with, or develope our own variety of sins. No matter what our particular proclivities toward sin might be, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ has won the Victory over them All; therefore, there is no inherent sin too difficult to overcome by the Holy Spirit. It all boils down to dying to self. Paul wrote, "I die daily", and "It is no longer I who live, but Christ Who lives in me!" Praise God! God bless you all, and I hope that this testimony has helped and/or encouraged someone.
Unfortunately, after nearly two years I backslid, and it had been true, that "...seven demons worse that the first came to roost in my house which had been swept clean." (Sorry, but I can't recall the location of the scriptural quotes, but I'm sure the senor members of this forum can verify their legitimacy). And so, I became enslaved to drunken, riotous living (or I should write: dying). Over the years, I made several attempts to come back to the Lord, but I had been unsuccessful due to the fact that I had not been ready to forsake All my fleshly addictions. One addiction that the world tries to convince everyone is "normal" seemed impossible to defeat. I would often become angry at God because of it. There was no way that I could grant legitimacy to it as the world has done, because no matter how deeply I sank into the darkness, the Light of God's Love still shone through: I could never deny the Truth, because it still lived in my heart of hearts!
So that I don't end up writing a book here, I will let it be known that I have finally been delivered from this condition that the world will tell you is normal. The Lord has since revealed to me that we are all born into sin, and that, for some reason that only God knows, I'm sure, we each are born with, or develope our own variety of sins. No matter what our particular proclivities toward sin might be, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ has won the Victory over them All; therefore, there is no inherent sin too difficult to overcome by the Holy Spirit. It all boils down to dying to self. Paul wrote, "I die daily", and "It is no longer I who live, but Christ Who lives in me!" Praise God! God bless you all, and I hope that this testimony has helped and/or encouraged someone.
