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I am a born again Christian, I believe that I first asked God into my life around the age of 10. Now that doesn’t mean that I knew all about Him and His ways but I did know about His love. My personal life growing up was real hard for me from moving from mother’s to father’s back to my mother’s or going to stay with my older sister’s. I was even molested as a young child from an uncle. I was spanked more then was necessary for a child to suffer though that it did leave emotional and mental scars in my life. I’ve watch my mother get physically abused and mentally abused as a child. It wasn’t a very loving Christian home upbringing that a child of God should live through but I have survived to testify that through being molested and through emotional and mental scars that I know that God has healed my wounds and made me a stronger person.
As an adult I was living in the world so much that I couldn’t even hear God speaking to me. Oh I knew of God but I just wanted to do my own thing and not to do what God wanted me to do. I would rather drink, sleep, or casts blame on other things or situations then try to seek God and look for His way. I used to do cocaine a lot when I used to have a drinking problem. I had adulterous affairs, meaning I had sex outside of marriage, not that I was having sex with married women. I used to look at porn daily and download those movies onto my computer. I just wasn’t really seeking God or His glory; I was still stuck on doing what I wanted to do. If I wanted to chew tobacco I would go out and buy some, if I wanted to look at porn, I would go and look at it, if I wanted to have sex I would go and have some, if I wanted to go out and get drunk I would go out and get drunk.
Doing all of these things I did for me, never really once doing things for others or if I did for other’s it was a show or because I wanted something in return from them. Yet one day God touched me and made me fall down and cry for He showed me that no matter how much filth that I have done in my life that no matter where I have been or what I have said or done that the Lord is faithful in His love that He forgive me of all of my sins. I no longer drink to get drunk, I no longer use any type of nicotine, I no longer use illicit drugs, I no longer look at porn, I no longer seek sexual relationship. The only relationship I am seeking is to better understand God.
I know that as a Christian that I am not perfect for no one on Earth is perfect for we all sin and come short of the Glory of God. Yet I am assured that my Redeemer lives and even thou I may fall in my walk with Christ that Lord Jesus will forgive me and to help me get back onto what He wants me to do for Him. For this life here on Earth is not about me or my wants, it is about doing what God wants you to do for Him. In all things in life do for the love and glory of God for He has taken away my sinful nature and cleansed me in the blood of the lamb to help me to become a stronger and better Christian man.
As an adult I was living in the world so much that I couldn’t even hear God speaking to me. Oh I knew of God but I just wanted to do my own thing and not to do what God wanted me to do. I would rather drink, sleep, or casts blame on other things or situations then try to seek God and look for His way. I used to do cocaine a lot when I used to have a drinking problem. I had adulterous affairs, meaning I had sex outside of marriage, not that I was having sex with married women. I used to look at porn daily and download those movies onto my computer. I just wasn’t really seeking God or His glory; I was still stuck on doing what I wanted to do. If I wanted to chew tobacco I would go out and buy some, if I wanted to look at porn, I would go and look at it, if I wanted to have sex I would go and have some, if I wanted to go out and get drunk I would go out and get drunk.
Doing all of these things I did for me, never really once doing things for others or if I did for other’s it was a show or because I wanted something in return from them. Yet one day God touched me and made me fall down and cry for He showed me that no matter how much filth that I have done in my life that no matter where I have been or what I have said or done that the Lord is faithful in His love that He forgive me of all of my sins. I no longer drink to get drunk, I no longer use any type of nicotine, I no longer use illicit drugs, I no longer look at porn, I no longer seek sexual relationship. The only relationship I am seeking is to better understand God.
I know that as a Christian that I am not perfect for no one on Earth is perfect for we all sin and come short of the Glory of God. Yet I am assured that my Redeemer lives and even thou I may fall in my walk with Christ that Lord Jesus will forgive me and to help me get back onto what He wants me to do for Him. For this life here on Earth is not about me or my wants, it is about doing what God wants you to do for Him. In all things in life do for the love and glory of God for He has taken away my sinful nature and cleansed me in the blood of the lamb to help me to become a stronger and better Christian man.
